"Hey, are you finally dating?"
I laughed as if I knew that my senior friend's motive was to be the first to know about us.
"No, you were actually dating secretly, weren't you? Then you fought and were in the middle of the Cold War."
"That's not the case."
Despite my denial, the senior in the department continued to insist on the secret love rumor, and in the end, my senior stepped forward and said something.
"I was following her unilaterally. If my juniors don't accept me, I'll die, so she has no choice but to go out with me."
"What? Could it be that you had a lovesickness? No, it can't be. Puhahahaha!"
The senior in the department giggled as if he was dumbfounded, even though he said it.
"I think my complexion has improved since we started dating, but wasn't it a real lovesickness?"
If you think about it. It's a disease caused by unrequited love, so it's a lovesickness.
When we didn't deny it, his eyes widened as if they were about to pop out.
"Really? Was he a sergeant? Do you like your junior that much?"
"Yes, she's my whole world."
"Huh... Hehe..."
The senior in the department did not hide his absurd reaction. However, he soon slapped my senior on the shoulder.
"Yeah, if it's that good, let's meet up for a long time."
It was a very simple reaction.
We never agreed to reveal or hide our relationship. However, I didn't show up to sit or date in class, so I thought people wouldn't know.
At least I thought so...
"I see you with the senior together a lot these days, don't you?"
"That's right, I think you ate together before."
Oh, right, my senior was popular.
My female classmates, juniors, and senior female students were also interested and asked questions.
"You didn't know we were dating?"
As if he had been waiting for this moment, my senior appeared and calmly answered on my behalf.
I never said I wanted to keep it a secret, but did you really have to reveal it without being mentally prepared?
The moment I had a feeling that my future life would not be smooth, the male seniors around me got angry.
"What, what? You two are dating? Why?"
"Your has a boyfriend? Is that him?"
After visiting 'that world', my appearance and atmosphere definitely changed, and the way people looked at me changed a lot, but I didn't think it would be to this extent.
"Why is my junior with that guy?"
As the sparkling eyes turned to me, a chill ran down my spine, as if I were still in a book.
No, this is reality. Nothing like what happened there happened.
I clasped my hands and forced a smile. Fortunately, the female classmates around me, as if to shield their gaze, bombarded me with questions.
“What? Really?”
“Since when?”
My senior and I were consistent in our non-commentary approach, as if we were in a relationship. However, they didn't give up easily.
"Hey, isn't this the best couple in our department?"
My senior's best friend, who had known for a long time that we were dating, said with a smile to lighten the heated atmosphere.
Fortunately, class started, and people dispersed.
"Ha..."
"You're tired?"
"Of course. It's all because of you, senior."
My senior, who smiled softly, left a note at the end of the class.
[ Should I run away? ]
I thought they were going to make some kind of movie, but in fact, I didn't want to be bombarded with questions, so as soon as class ended, we quickly left the building, waving and saying, "See you next time."
"I really hate being the center of attention..."
"You like to act like you know me, but don't. You don't want to be loved by them, nor do you want to be hated by them."
But, the senior added, “Can’t an insignificant stranger influence you?”
This man knows me too well for nothing.
"Don't pretend to write when you don't care what anyone says anyway. Or are you just trying to make me feel guilty?"
The senior closed his eyes and smiled as if he was happy.
"I'll do that well."
He clasped his hand around mine, as if to keep me from running away.
***
Even though I didn't really love him, the fact that I decided to fall in love made him feel stable.
"I don't love you, so it doesn't matter?"
"Yes, it's important that someone in this world recognizes me."
"Will it be in vain again if we break up?"
The senior stopped walking and looked at me with a smile as if he was in trouble.
"You are so cruel. Don't worry about asking such questions."
"You know everything and like it. So you have to endure it."
The senior who was checking my complexion laughed and said he understood.
For a while, a storm of questions continued. After about a week, the questions were over, but the rumors continued at the college.
The strange thing is that both my senior and I are looked at with jealousy and questioning, respectively.
I think I'm so pretty.
When I look at the window or mirror, I am strange and strangely familiar. Although it has changed, it felt even more strange that the original appearance remains.
At the same time, I felt ostracized from my world.
No. I'm not alien, I'm from here.
"What was your original appearance like? Is it similar to now?"
"Except for the color of your hair and eyes."
"Hmm..."
"Why are you curious about what I look like?"
"A little?"
Because he is overly handsome, his black hair and blue eyes go well together, but it would have been better if he had his original silver hair and silver-gray eyes.
"Shall we dye it later? In the original color."
"That's not bad either."
My senior, who was looking at me, suddenly asked a question.
"Junior, don't you really want to go back to 'there'?"
"Why are you suddenly asking such a question?"
"If you really didn't like that place, I don't think you would have asked about my original self."
I waved to my classmates, who greeted me.
"Well..."
There are too many people like me in the world of books.
There is something wrong with it, but I pretend to be fine...
"At first, it was like a dream, so I didn't think much of it, but as I stayed there, I think I had some thoughts about it."
Why did I make a flaw in them? No, I created people who were not aware of it and were twisted in mind and body.
I realized this fact when I met the people who were alive.
"Really, he looks like me to the point of annoyance."
"Do you think you are strange?"
However, when I heard the question, "Are you strange?", I couldn't answer easily.
Do I want to deny that I'm weird?
I was silent, but the senior did not urge me to answer.
On the contrary, he asked a different question.
"Why did you decide to meet me? I'm one of the people who you get tired of."
"Because you have a handsome face."
"Yes?"
"It's my preference."
Even the tear point was perfectly to my taste, so I couldn't throw it away.
Although much of the same aura as at the beginning has disappeared, it would be a huge shame for someone with such a face and body to disappear.
Even here, this is not the speed of the book, but the reality.
"Don't you want to go where you used to be?"
"I'm curious, are my parents doing well, and is my country peaceful?"
"Then wouldn't it be better to go? I think it's easier to check it out for yourself."
The Crown Prince is a person who loves the empire and is responsible for his position.
Of course, the Crown Prince, who became my senior, has changed a lot, but an indelible longing exuded from him.
It was a different reaction than when he told me before. 'That's an illusion.' This must be sincere.
"No. There is someone there to replace me anyway."
In place of the missing Prince, Princesses are filling the place.
I had taken away my seniors' position.
"If I go there, I won't be able to monopolize you."
He swept the back of his hand against my cheek.
"I don't want to be able to come back, and while I left you behind. I don't want you to meet someone else."
Was it the murderous intent to be young for a moment in those blue eyes?
Instead of emotions that disappeared so quickly that I felt like I was mistaken, a terrible obsession was in my senior's eyes.
He wore a gentle mask and tried to engulf me from head to toe.
"You are everything to me. So you can't abandon me."
Only I have to love you.
I could even hear stories he hadn't told.
I stared straight at him, not avoiding his blue eyes.
"Yes. That's why I took your hand."
A smile is on the corner of my senior's mouth.
"Make me love you."
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