It's a pity.
Ryan watched Nike foolishly endure the pain, and vaguely realized why Vania had been compelled to love him before her return.
A man who has lost all his memories of love and affection.
Now, he doesn't love Vania, and he doesn't feel like he cherishes her anymore because they haven't spent any time together.
All he knows now is that he only guessed, 'I loved that girl.'
Yet, Nike is willing to sacrifice his body for Vania.
‘Because he’s this kind of guy...’
...He must have loved her.
“I won’t tell Vania because she’ll be worried if she finds out the Prince is sick.”
Ryan crumpled up the piece of paper containing the lost memory fragments that Nike had recalled and held it tightly in his hand.
“Vania wouldn’t want the Prince to regain his memories in this way... at all.”
“...”
“So, for Vania’s sake, just forget about it. Forget about it...”
Nike looked helplessly at the memory in Ryan's hand.
‘I guess I’ll have to write something new.’
Memories that need to be rewritten from the beginning.
Even though he knew that Nike had lost her memory, I thought it wouldn't be too difficult to meet her again.
Because we thought we were each other's destiny.
but….
'It was pride.'
I realized it when I saw Nike's expression.
Did he really sell his memories and regress for a girl he didn't even know?
...A confused face, as if thinking about something like that.
He probably has a feeling we were lovers, even if we don't say it.
What other relationship can be like that except between lovers?
Then, the good Nike will worry.
Even though he doesn't remember...
Anyway, since we were lovers, should we meet again? Even though I don't have any feelings for her right now, should I at least try to love her?
...That’s the kind of worry I’m talking about.
So I put the burden on Nike.
By just forcing it on him without any memory, he only caused confusion and guilt.
“Kali, did a monster come out?”
“It would have come out by now.”
It's been a week since Ryan left for the expedition.
I was lying next to Kali, getting ready to fall asleep.
“You know, Kali.”
"Yes."
“Am I... still young?”
"? Yes."
“Ugh.”
I don't want to give up on Nike. I'm confident I can seduce him again. I've followed him around for two years before my return, and I've been involved in various schemes.
“His Highness is already twenty-one years old. Why isn’t he engaged?”
“I have no thoughts.”
“I see...”
I know very well what kind of comments Nike gets off on and how that blunt guy reacts.
“Why don’t you do it, Princess?”
“Because the Prince has no thoughts.”
“...”
“Thump, thump, thump.”
Ryan watched Nike foolishly endure the pain, and vaguely realized why Vania had been compelled to love him before her return.
A man who has lost all his memories of love and affection.
Now, he doesn't love Vania, and he doesn't feel like he cherishes her anymore because they haven't spent any time together.
All he knows now is that he only guessed, 'I loved that girl.'
Yet, Nike is willing to sacrifice his body for Vania.
‘Because he’s this kind of guy...’
...He must have loved her.
“I won’t tell Vania because she’ll be worried if she finds out the Prince is sick.”
Ryan crumpled up the piece of paper containing the lost memory fragments that Nike had recalled and held it tightly in his hand.
“Vania wouldn’t want the Prince to regain his memories in this way... at all.”
“...”
“So, for Vania’s sake, just forget about it. Forget about it...”
Nike looked helplessly at the memory in Ryan's hand.
“...Please start over."
***
‘I guess I’ll have to write something new.’
Memories that need to be rewritten from the beginning.
Even though he knew that Nike had lost her memory, I thought it wouldn't be too difficult to meet her again.
Because we thought we were each other's destiny.
but….
'It was pride.'
I realized it when I saw Nike's expression.
Did he really sell his memories and regress for a girl he didn't even know?
...A confused face, as if thinking about something like that.
He probably has a feeling we were lovers, even if we don't say it.
What other relationship can be like that except between lovers?
Then, the good Nike will worry.
Even though he doesn't remember...
Anyway, since we were lovers, should we meet again? Even though I don't have any feelings for her right now, should I at least try to love her?
...That’s the kind of worry I’m talking about.
So I put the burden on Nike.
By just forcing it on him without any memory, he only caused confusion and guilt.
“Kali, did a monster come out?”
“It would have come out by now.”
It's been a week since Ryan left for the expedition.
I was lying next to Kali, getting ready to fall asleep.
“You know, Kali.”
"Yes."
“Am I... still young?”
"? Yes."
“Ugh.”
I don't want to give up on Nike. I'm confident I can seduce him again. I've followed him around for two years before my return, and I've been involved in various schemes.
“His Highness is already twenty-one years old. Why isn’t he engaged?”
“I have no thoughts.”
“I see...”
I know very well what kind of comments Nike gets off on and how that blunt guy reacts.
“Would you ask him why he doesn't do it?”
“Because the Prince has no thoughts.”
“...”
“Thump, thump, thump.”
At that time, I was worried that I had pushed too hard because there was no response at all...
Nike told me later that his heart was beating so fast that he was worried I could hear it!
Anyway, there are about 380 ways to seduce Nike, but the problem is.
I am thirteen years old now...
“Of course, to an adult male, I wouldn’t look like a woman now, right?”
“?”
Kali stared at me. Then she said.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about all of a sudden, but if there’s an adult male who sees the young lady as a woman, he should be killed.”
“Isn’t that too extreme?”
"It's not extreme. I'll take appropriate action, even if it doesn't necessarily mean killing him."
...This is so scary. I don't even want to ask what the appropriate course of action is.
Of course, Nike will never see me as a woman.
I buttoned it up wrong from the start.
It wasn't for nothing that I was hanging around Nike as a child.
Even if we meet again later, I might feel a sense of rejection because it reminds me of my childhood.
“Do you have someone you like?”
"Yes."
“Are you His Highness the Third Prince?”
...You’re sharp.
“Yeah.”
"Yes."
We were silent. Maybe Kali would look at me with pity.
Because for Nike and me, it's not just a matter of age.
Actually, when I was the Princess of Wassenberg, I was worthy of being compared to the royal family, even if I was cursed at, but not anymore.
On paper... the daughter of a criminal!
A thirteen-year-old child of a lowly honorary Baron, who can hardly be called a noble!
This is why I'm throwing everything away to bring down Wassenberg. This is why I live so diligently. Of course, there's a greater cause behind this, but...
I also had a goal of loving Nike without any worries and with peace of mind.
But I don't know.
I lost confidence.
After everything has been accomplished as desired, after creating a world where people can be happy without worry...
What if you weren't by my side?
If you say you are happy without me...
At that time, really, what should I do...?
***
Farnese, the cursed land.
Fortunately, the scale of the demons that appeared this time was normal.
So the suppression went smoothly...
No, is it just going smoothly?
"The Southern Expeditionary Force members are incredibly skilled. The list is the same as when I came six months ago, but how have their skills improved so much?"
Nike smiled as he watched his comrade, Reiner, chattering excitedly.
There have been no deaths so far. No serious injuries.
Even if Nike were to rewind time and save everyone, he wouldn't be able to save everyone, and in the central subjugation zone, there were usually more than five deaths on average...
“Where are you going, Your Highness?”
“To Ryan.”
A brief lull.
This time, too, Nike took steps to find the invisible Ryan.
“Why do you keep looking for Sir Ryan?”
Reiner followed, suspicious. In fact, at first, he thought Nike was looking for Ryan to scold him.
Ryan, who had to fight in Area A0, often ignored the commander's orders and left the deployment area.
However...
“I don’t know what might have happened. I need to check to see if anyone is hurt.”
“...?”
No, that big guy?
You're worried about this monstrous man who appeared like a comet during the last Eastern Front suppression and is now a hundred-man army?
'Hmm.'
That's not all that's strange.
Wasn't it because of Ryan that Nike joined this expedition late?
A murder that occurred in the transit point, Peleen.
Even though the investigation was over, Nike stayed a few more days just in case.
No one does not know that he stayed longer out of concern for Ryan.
'We've become really close?'
Although Nike's somewhat excessive favor was questionable, Reiner was still faithfully supporting him as his best friend and adjutant.
“Ryan.”
Soon, the two found Ryan in Area A1.
At Nike's call, Ryan briefly nodded while checking his weapons with a tired face.
Nike has no memories.
He just knows.
The one who created the situation of 0 deaths is Ryan.
"Please check for dead people in all four directions of Zone A during each lull. If they've been dead for more than 30 minutes, please slow down the clock."
Before the expedition began, Ryan made such a proposal, and Nike had no reason to refuse.
No, what do you mean by rejection?
Actually, he was hoping that when he spoke openly with Ryan, he would get help like this.
However, it was a difficult and regrettable request, so he couldn’t easily bring it up...
Every time someone dies, Ryan must intervene and fix the timeline. Alone with his memories, he must fight several times.
Such a hassle...
He said he would do it first.
“There’s no need to go through all this trouble...”
"Actually, this isn't my style. I suppose it's only right to assume that those who die are destined to die, but really."
He said it was Vania's request.
“It’s not like the Prince can save everyone anyway, so she's saying that feeling guilty about having the ability to return is no joke.”
A supernatural ability that can minimize casualties if one's memories are intact, <Poem of Retrograde>.
However, Nike was tormented every time he had to helplessly watch his comrades die, as his regression was not complete.
Just by looking at how much she knows about Nike’s inner struggles...
Before returning, the relationship between Vania and Nike must have been so deep that it was hard to even guess.
“For Vania’s sake, just forget it. Forget it... and start over.”
Nike, who had been feeling depressed for a moment, shook his head and asked Ryan.
“Good work. Are you hurt?”
"Yes."
This time, he must have regressed for over 30 minutes, so he doesn't remember.
But seeing as Ryan is here, there must have been a fatality in Area A1.
“It’s so hard, really...”
Nike looked at him with pity.
Ryan opened his eyes slightly, seeing Nike's apologetic expression.
Opportunity... maybe?
“Your Highness, could you perhaps grant me a favor while I am suffering like this?”
Nike nodded readily.
“Anything.”
“I’m sorry to ask you this, but...”
Ryan blushed and hesitated, as if he was embarrassed to bring up the subject for some reason.
In fact, he had a lot of thoughts.
To be exact... He been worried ever since he left the wounded Vania behind.
“What if that person doesn’t love me this time... or starts liking someone else...”
“...”
“I can’t tell you not to do that... I can’t even ask you to like me again...”
Yeah, that could be... right?
Nike has lost all memories of love, and this time, Ryan finds himself in a situation where he can't even dig up those memories again.
Ryan, who had assumed that they would meet again since they were so in love, began to worry.
There are a lot of things that have changed since the regression...
Since he was largely responsible for the situation between them, if their reunion failed, he would feel indescribable guilt.
'Ha, but what should I say?'
...Yes, worrying is just a waste of time.
After all, ramming is the best.
“Please don’t meet other women.”
“...”
Ryan said solemnly.
And then,
The eyes of the adjutant behind Nike, his old friend, and Reiner were shaking as if an earthquake had occurred.
‘What, what is this...!’
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