The first time I kissed Dominic, everything seemed beautiful.
It seemed that all the common expressions about kissing were made up for me.
But what about the kiss I'm doing now?
I was kissing him to express my anger.
I did it just because I wanted him to suffer as much as I did.
I wanted to tell Calix what it feels like to have your happiest moments turn into horrible memories.
"..."
I dug into his gaping lips without hesitation.
I grabbed him by the collar and pushed him away.
With a thud, his back touched the wall.
He flinched as if he had touched the wound, but I didn't bother and mixed my tongue deeper.
I held him tight as he hid as if he were running away.
Our lips clasped together and swallowed their opponents.
He was still confused and finally closed his eyes.
"Hah."
I couldn't tell who it belonged to.
It was hot in the room. But I didn't want to fall.
The thin indoor dress slowly got wet as it touched his rain-drenched body tightly.
It was as if I had been hit by rain.
My head gradually became dizzy.
It seemed like a little bit of time had passed, and it seemed like quite a lot had passed.
Then, his hand, which had been hesitating all along, came up to my waist.
And at that moment, I remembered the time I kissed Mr. Dominic and pushed him away.
"Rosenia."
"..."
I let out a quiet breath and bit my lower lip tightly.
What have I done?
I tried to make fun of him.
I kissed him and tried to laugh at him, asking if I thought he was serious.
To me, Dominic is like a dead man, so if you think I still have feelings for you, you're all mistaken.
But in this case, I'm the one who should laugh at you.
Once again, I found traces of Dominic in Calix.
Moreover, I would have been lying if I said that I didn't have any emotion in the kiss a moment ago.
I was tired of my indecisive attitude.
I glared at him as hard as I could.
"It's terrible."
He flinched as I stood across from him.
"It's terrible. It's terrible. Can't you just leave me alone?"
I don't like him.
I hated him for deceiving me and making me go through things I didn't have to go through.
"I told you. I don't want to be involved anymore. I just want to live quietly. But why?"
But at the same time, I was relieved that he woke up.
I was right here thinking that the man who jumped down without hesitation to save me might really love me.
And that fact made me unbearable.
"Why do you show up like this and make me feel this way?"
Finally, tears flowed down my cheeks.
After all, I just ignored it.
I shouldn't have bothered if he had been caught in the rain all night.
Why was my gaze turned out of the window, and I kept checking to see if he had gone home?
I quietly wiped my tears with the back of my hand.
Calix carefully held my hand.
I didn't look at him and said.
"Let go of this."
"What should I do?"
Somehow, it sounded like there was moisture in his voice.
I'm actually crying.
It's a ridiculous mistake.
"What can I do to relieve your heart? I will do as I am told. If you ask me to pass over the upper association and live in service to you for the rest of my life, I will obey. So please don't cry like that."
"Duke. There's only one thing you can do for me."
I coldly shook his hand.
"Upper? Service? I don't need that. You just have to disappear from my presence. So I can be alone."
"I heard that those who escaped have not yet been caught. It's dangerous to be alone."
"That's why I'm telling you that you don't have to worry about those things anymore."
I was tired of it.
I was tired of this feeling that never ended.
Please stop now.
Suddenly, there was a knock.
"Miss."
It was the maid.
I went straight to the door and swung it open the door.
The maid made eye contact and gave Calix a slight glance in my room.
"It's getting dark at night. Should I prepare a guest room?"
Usually, I don't ask about this kind of thing, and I prepare it on my own.
I realized that the maid had come to my room on purpose.
And the reason is probably to ask me if I need help.
"Nope."
There was no reason to refuse when the other person offered to help.
I decided to throw Calix out of here.
"He is going to die now. Please guide him."
"Rosenia."
"I think your clothes are dry enough. You have to go back before it's too late. If someone who is not feeling well comes home late, everyone will be worried."
Calix's face darkened at the obvious congratulatory decree.
I stepped out of the door as if to tell the maid to go out.
He hesitated, not moving easily.
A strange confrontation ensued for a while.
Just as I was about to sigh, he whispered quickly, as if confessing.
"I'm sorry to hurt you. But today, I really wanted to ask for forgiveness."
I didn't answer. I just listened.
Actually, I didn't even want to hear it.
It was just that the maid was next to me, so I couldn't cover my ears.
"And..."
Calix pulled something out of his arms and forced it into my hand.
It was a small pendant in a bright red color.
I looked at him with a frown, and Calix explained.
"An artifact with a protective spell. The Magic Tower lord made it himself. It's a one-time thing, but if something dangerous happens, I'll protect you."
"Why do you do this to me..."
"There's a chance that those who flee will continue to target you."
It was a useless worry.
Estelle and Derek will be captured by Rexed, and the escort knights will always be by my side.
Even if it was a useful worry, it was not Calix's own.
I immediately returned the pendant to him.
"I don't need this."
But he shook his head and stepped back.
"You don't know. It can be dangerous, so please carry it with you at all times.'
"..."
"There are many things I haven't said yet... I look forward to waiting for your heart to be relaxed. Excuse me, late at night."
Calix, who seemed to be going to stay in my room until the end, finally left the room for the last time.
The door was closed.
The sound of the other person walking down the hallway gradually faded away.
And when the sound was completely gone, I collapsed into bed.
"Hah. My stomach rumbled."
I covered my face with my hands and held my breath.
I could hear the sound of pouring rain continuously.
Somehow, it seemed that this rain would not stop easily.
***
"Please return carefully, Duke."
In contrast to the polite send-off, the iron gate of the Marquis's residence closed without hesitation.
The expelled Calix stared through the bars.
It had been a week since he came to the Marquis to meet Rosenia.
He wanted to ask her for forgiveness.
He wanted to convey that his love for her was sincere.
And today, after a long wait, he was able to meet Rosenia.
Calix hoped that maybe today he could be forgiven by Rosenia.
The reprimand for why he was in the rain and the towel she handed him roughly were all actions that could have come out because she still had a little bit of concern for him.
If she forgives him and gives him one more chance, he won't make any more mistakes.
He vowed that he would do his best, as Rosenia had forgiven him.
However, such a future did not come.
'Rosenia cried.'
He rang. There was no excuse.
She asked him to disappear.
She asked him not to get involved anymore.
Calix was such a person to Rosenia.
The kind of being who causes pain, even if she encounters him for a moment.
And it was Calix himself who made the situation this way, not anyone else.
The fact was unbearably terrifying.
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