The endless eons of time drove him crazy. During that boring time, Karl became infinitely close to a god, but he was still a monster of a god.
As such, he could not shake off the punishment of the gods, and for that reason, he could not bring Odette back to life until the end of the world.
Billions of hatred and hatred towards oneself.
I'm sorry I ruined it all. Please, open your eyes. I'm all wrong. I shouldn't have hated you in the first place. No. I should never have loved you. Otherwise, I shouldn't have planned something for you.
My mother is right. I'm a disaster. Existence itself is a curse and ruin. I was the one who loved you, and I messed you up. Please, if you can come back alive, I'll do anything. I can really do anything.
Karl, who had been suffocated by time, finally met God on the last day of the world.
Karl cried out to God for mercy in front of him.
"I know that Odette was deprived of all her purifying power by Rosalyn and died unjustly. But is that a reason for me to intervene? I loved Odette and Rosalyn equally. No, I should say that I loved Rosalyn, the sore finger, more."
"I have no reason to save Odette's soul. She was completely gone. I will never be reincarnated in any world."
"Why do you look like that? Do you think you must love God more for what is good?"
It won't salvage Odette's soul, nor will it revive it. Don't beg for Odette anymore.
"It's boring to hear the same wishes for so long. Just looking at the ashes makes me tremble. You are the first reprehensible sinner to imprison God in the punishment of boredom."
As if Odette were a joke, he had no intention of bringing her back to life.
Therefore, Karl had no choice but to kill the god and spill his blood.
Naturally, Karl, who had become a god, looked at Odette's ossuary. Without coordinates, he could bring her back to life right here and there if he wanted to.
'But even if she is resurrected here, will she be happy? In this terrible end where I am the only one left...'
For Karl, Odette is happiness. But what about Odette? Would Odette be happy with a world where there was only Karl?
Just imagining the disappointment and resentment that would fill the turquoise eyes made Karl feel ashamed of himself.
He thinks Odette thought she had come back to life the moment she saw Karl, then... He really felt like he wanted to die.
And even if it wasn't necessary, he wanted to see Odette smile.
He had contemplated Odette's Image tens of thousands of times over eternity, and Karl had never thought of Odette's happy smile. He had never seen it.
Now that he has become a god, he misses her. Odette's face is full of complete happiness, not anxiety or worry.
So he turned back time by using her as an axis of return. Even though he knew that if he turned back time with someone other than himself as his axis, he would have to go back to the beginning, losing all his divine powers and memories.
Even though he knows that he will have to stay trapped at the beginning of nothing, until the day when he was born will come again.
Before making Odette the axis of return, Karl made a necklace of lockets on his hand.
After he went back to the beginning, he wouldn't have any memories, and then he wouldn't be able to help Odette. Karl had torn his soul into pieces and trapped a part of it in the necklace.
It was enough soul fragments to remain even if they went back to the beginning.
"Return Odette to the point where she can change the future with her hands, to the point where Odette wanted to return the most."
The beginning went back to that. The beginning of a universe where there is nothing but Karl.
Je know how terrible it is. Nevertheless, Karl felt joy at the moment of his return.
He didn't know it at the time. Even if he did, Karl would be nothing to Odette. In the end, he will be abandoned.
***
So it is now. Karl held his grip and looked at Odette with a complicated feeling, as she struggled to face him.
'Even a very short moment is enough. Were you sure that you could be satisfied?'
One eon, another vague wait from the beginning. All of that will be compensated for by this brief moment spent with her...
It was an arrogant decision. He wanted to be something like that woman right now, and he was going crazy. He was so jealous of her condolences to the other transcendents that he wanted to die.
Pretending that he doesn't have any greed, can he be satisfied with this? He felt like he was detestable to his past self for having such a conviction.
"..."
The reflection in Odette's eyes is so ecstatic.
Karl had no choice but to admit it. He killed het with his own hands, but at least the damn saw through the essence of Karl.
"Love for a beast destined for destruction. How could you, who have no grace from God, feel such a noble feeling? All you feel is greed and filthy desires."
That may be true. When did he wish she could just laugh? Now come...
It was also Karl who arranged for the forgotten memories to be recalled at this moment, before turning back time.
She saw Karl before she went back. Odette can never be happy as long as the Transcendent exists in the world.
Therefore, his soul fragment caused the three transcendents to die after they had exhausted their usefulness.
Karl remembers this moment and dies himself. Only Odette was safely released from here.
He was willing to die if his own death would make Odette laugh.
No faults, no oaths, no promises. It was all done unilaterally by Karl. It was all KarI's choice. Therefore, he could not demand anything from Odette.
But still, he thought he would see Odette's smile at the end of this one-sided choice. He thought Odette would be happy. So he thought he would remain at least meaningful.
He can't blame Odette. She never made any oath or promise to him.
Odette was simply swept away by Karl. No matter how painful the endless wait was, it doesn't mean she has the heart to repay Karl.
Nor is it obligatory to rejoice in what Karl has prepared for Odette's joy.
But... Nevertheless...
"I didn't expect anything extraordinary."
I want you to be happy. I want you to be happy. I want you to know that I worked hard for that. I hope you don't abandon me too much.
On the day of his birth, Karl had been given an oracle that he would be doomed to ruin himself. Karl had never cared about the oracle in his life.
But now, that fact made him painfully ashamed. Because he was an unpleasant being. It was no different from a beast born without God's grace. Because everyone shunned him.
Because Karl was born to be like that, he couldn't seem to be loved by Odette.
He is abandoned by Odette every time. Even the most elaborate gift from Karl has no meaning to her.
Shameful. He was suffocated by the misery. It seems that the mind is falling into an endless abyss.
***
Odette looked at Karl in the ocean, where time had stopped.
'Karl is really a god... You say?'
The First Transcendent. The one who was a god. All three of them... It was Karl.
Even though she saw Karl's power with her own eyes, she did not fully accept it. But now, the puzzles that had been floating around in her head seemed to be coming together.
The moment Karl's black sphere shattered, there was a scene in the fragments where Karl killed a being who looked like a "god."
"I know that I carried it in my stomach. His very existence is like a curse. He's going to ruin our clan. Yes, like an oracle! He will be a living curse, a ruin itself."
Karl's memories of what his mother said, the moments when he felt like a demon.
He was an evil god destined to kill God, so if she said that Karl looked that way, then the eerie and grotesque appearance made sense.
'The reason why only the Fenrils had no faith, and why they were considered excluded from God's favor, is because of... Karl?'
Because Karl was supposed to become an evil god from the beginning? Even if Karl killed God, was it actually his fate?
Questions kept coming back to her mind. However, the most important question now is not anything else.
'So... What is Karl going to do to me? What does he want from me...?'
Odette remembered what Karl had done to her in the dungeon. He was now standing in front of her as an omnipotent being. Moreover, Karl did not hide his identity and even revealed it.
'I don't know what you're going to do this time.'
She won't be beaten quietly. Odette reflexively tensed as if she were in front of a beast of prey.
At that moment.
"You'll just look at me once... That's enough..."
Tears flowed from Karl's eyes.
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