This happened thousands of years ago.
When the Goddess first discovered the darkness that was deeply embedded in Elysia's soul, she spent every night in tears.
She wasn't supposed to have this child.
She should have killed her while she was still in the womb.
She deeply regretted putting the world she loved at risk because of her indecisiveness in not wanting to kill her daughter with her own hands.
'We must kill the child now.'
If she had killed the child now, she could have ended it without causing any harm.
If it were now, before her child awakened to the power of darkness.
But how could she kill this lovely child, this daughter whom she would not mind putting in her eyes, with her own hands?
One day, while she was writhing in pain, she had a dream.
A small boy with brilliant olive eyes and hair.
The dream of that little child who called her mother falling in love with Elysia, rebelling against her, and taking her life force... No, it was a future that would happen in the distant future.
'A being that can kill me?'
It was ridiculous.
She was the ruler of this world, and no one in the world could harm her.
And it was the same for her, too.
Just as Moz could not escape the underworld, she, too, was a being enslaved to this world.
'But how...'
Feeling embarrassed, she continued to observe the child's life.
The whole thing, from the child who was regretting seeing the world ruined by Elysia's hands, to the human daughter he had harmed with his own hands, to the child who gathered her servants who had been turned into holy relics, to the child who killed Elysia and then resurrected her.
When she finally confirmed the child's future, she felt hope for the first time in her heart.
‘If it’s this child...’
You could have killed Elysia for me.
And he was able to take the heavy burden off her shoulders and let her leave with Elysia.
Because he was a child born with the destiny to become a god, he followed in her footsteps.
Trembling with excitement, she immediately took action.
Once she had trapped Elysia as she had seen in her dream, she began to conceive a child.
Because she did not want to give birth to another person's child other than Moz, she carefully created each child, placed them in her womb, and carried them for ten months.
But even though she had four children, they were not the children she had seen in her dreams.
How on earth can I meet that kid?
One day, when she was stamping her feet in impatience, she happened to meet a man.
A human male with olive hair and eyes that looked just like the child she saw in her dream, he introduced himself as Mailer Bayen.
It was the surname of the child she saw in her dream.
He was the child's biological father.
That night, she held the man in her arms and conceived a child.
And when she finally saw the face of her baby, born after waiting for ten whole months, she cried tears of joy.
Because that child was the only one who could allow her and Elysia to be together.
Elysia's expression became blank as she listened to the goddess's words with distrustful eyes.
“...You knew the future?”
Bayen and I fall in love and join forces to push ourselves away?
And yet you saved my life?
To die with me?
Elysia couldn't understand it at all.
Giving up one's life to be with one's children was an act that required tremendous love.
But isn't that woman not that kind of person?
'That woman... me... '
She was locked up underground, where not a single ray of light could enter, and left for thousands of years.
Even though she had heard the goddess's full story, Elysia did not believe her.
No, she didn't want to believe it.
If all that is true, then what happens to this resentment that she has harbored for thousands of years?
Who should she vent this feeling of injustice and despair on?
The goddess smiled sadly as she looked at her confused self.
“Elysia, I couldn’t kill you, but I couldn’t let you live either. I created this world, but it’s no longer mine. Tens of thousands of creatures I created live there.”
“...”
“So, even though you are my daughter, I cannot leave a harmful being alone. But...”
Her eyes narrowed gently.
“I can die with you.”
It was the look in the eyes of a mother who would even risk death for her daughter.
The goddess, who was still unable to accept her feelings, carefully hugged Elysia and spoke softly.
“I’m sorry I couldn’t be with you while you were alive. I’m sorry I couldn’t watch over you as you grew up, when you were so small and innocent, and I couldn’t comfort you when you were suddenly trapped underground and confused, and I’m sorry I made you feel abandoned.”
“...”
“But Elysia, I have never stopped loving you. Even though I was unable to control the fate that was innate to me and left you alone, you are still my most beloved daughter, my first blessing.”
“...”
“So, Elysia, will you allow me to do so? So that I, the mother, can be with you after your death.”
The goddess begged earnestly that she might die with her beloved daughter.
Elyaia's expression, which had been blankly staring at the sight, distorted horribly.
“If that’s the case, if you love me enough to want to die with me, then at least tell me. Explain to me that I was born with the destiny to ruin the world, and that I have no choice but to be locked up like this. At least come see me sometimes. Then I would have understood. I would have quietly shut myself away and waited. Why now...!”
“...”
“What am I supposed to do if you do this now! I resented you without knowing anything, and I have been trembling with betrayal and resentment for thousands of years. What am I supposed to do? Why did you make me a sinner with no one to resent, why!”
“Elysia...”
As if to remove the congestion in her chest, the resentment she constantly spewed out was mixed with a childish sob.
The goddess, who had been looking at her daughter with pained eyes, hugged her again.
“I’m sorry, Elysia. It’s all mother’s fault. I couldn’t bear to tell you that you were born with such a fate. Blame your mother, Elysia.”
Elysia did not reject her embrace. Instead, she cried louder, as if pouring out the loneliness that had been building up for a long time.
Tears of regret flowed from the eyes of the goddess as she gently patted her daughter's back.
So the two of them hugged each other and cried for a long time.
After the long mourning between mother and daughter, the goddess briefly let go of Elysia, whom she thought she would never let go of, and approached Bayen, who was lying down.
Bayen, who had given up all of his divine powers along with those of his mother that he had taken away, was on the verge of death.
The goddess, who was looking at her son with pained eyes as he gasped for breath so hard that it was painful to watch, held Bayen in her arms and kissed him deeply on the forehead.
At that moment, a wisp of white light emanated from the goddess's body and slowly flowed into Bayen's body.
Then, his irregular breathing gradually began to stabilize, and color returned to his pale face.
On the contrary, the goddess who gave all her life force to her son was transformed into the appearance of a sick person in an instant.
"Mother!"
Confusion appeared on Bayen's face as he hurriedly caught the goddess falling to the floor helplessly.
“Mother, why...”
“Don’t be sad, my dear. From the beginning, I planned to end my life with Elysia when everything was over. I’m just sorry that I put such a big burden on you in the process.”
"Mother..."
The goddess reached out with difficulty and caressed her son's cheek.
“I got you involved in the death of the woman you loved, even though I knew how much it hurt you. I’m so sorry.”
“It’s not something for which Mother should apologize. Even if you are a goddess, once fate has been decided, it cannot be changed.”
“Yes, that’s right. But I am a sinner because I failed to prevent what I could have prevented in advance, using the excuse of motherhood, and I shifted the responsibility to you. I am unworthy of being a mother or a goddess. So, Janette, I leave it to you now. Follow in my footsteps and become the master of this world, and look after my creatures.”
When the Goddess first discovered the darkness that was deeply embedded in Elysia's soul, she spent every night in tears.
She wasn't supposed to have this child.
She should have killed her while she was still in the womb.
She deeply regretted putting the world she loved at risk because of her indecisiveness in not wanting to kill her daughter with her own hands.
'We must kill the child now.'
If she had killed the child now, she could have ended it without causing any harm.
If it were now, before her child awakened to the power of darkness.
But how could she kill this lovely child, this daughter whom she would not mind putting in her eyes, with her own hands?
One day, while she was writhing in pain, she had a dream.
A small boy with brilliant olive eyes and hair.
The dream of that little child who called her mother falling in love with Elysia, rebelling against her, and taking her life force... No, it was a future that would happen in the distant future.
'A being that can kill me?'
It was ridiculous.
She was the ruler of this world, and no one in the world could harm her.
And it was the same for her, too.
Just as Moz could not escape the underworld, she, too, was a being enslaved to this world.
'But how...'
Feeling embarrassed, she continued to observe the child's life.
The whole thing, from the child who was regretting seeing the world ruined by Elysia's hands, to the human daughter he had harmed with his own hands, to the child who gathered her servants who had been turned into holy relics, to the child who killed Elysia and then resurrected her.
When she finally confirmed the child's future, she felt hope for the first time in her heart.
‘If it’s this child...’
You could have killed Elysia for me.
And he was able to take the heavy burden off her shoulders and let her leave with Elysia.
Because he was a child born with the destiny to become a god, he followed in her footsteps.
Trembling with excitement, she immediately took action.
Once she had trapped Elysia as she had seen in her dream, she began to conceive a child.
Because she did not want to give birth to another person's child other than Moz, she carefully created each child, placed them in her womb, and carried them for ten months.
But even though she had four children, they were not the children she had seen in her dreams.
How on earth can I meet that kid?
One day, when she was stamping her feet in impatience, she happened to meet a man.
A human male with olive hair and eyes that looked just like the child she saw in her dream, he introduced himself as Mailer Bayen.
It was the surname of the child she saw in her dream.
He was the child's biological father.
That night, she held the man in her arms and conceived a child.
And when she finally saw the face of her baby, born after waiting for ten whole months, she cried tears of joy.
Because that child was the only one who could allow her and Elysia to be together.
***
Elysia's expression became blank as she listened to the goddess's words with distrustful eyes.
“...You knew the future?”
Bayen and I fall in love and join forces to push ourselves away?
And yet you saved my life?
To die with me?
Elysia couldn't understand it at all.
Giving up one's life to be with one's children was an act that required tremendous love.
But isn't that woman not that kind of person?
'That woman... me... '
She was locked up underground, where not a single ray of light could enter, and left for thousands of years.
Even though she had heard the goddess's full story, Elysia did not believe her.
No, she didn't want to believe it.
If all that is true, then what happens to this resentment that she has harbored for thousands of years?
Who should she vent this feeling of injustice and despair on?
The goddess smiled sadly as she looked at her confused self.
“Elysia, I couldn’t kill you, but I couldn’t let you live either. I created this world, but it’s no longer mine. Tens of thousands of creatures I created live there.”
“...”
“So, even though you are my daughter, I cannot leave a harmful being alone. But...”
Her eyes narrowed gently.
“I can die with you.”
It was the look in the eyes of a mother who would even risk death for her daughter.
The goddess, who was still unable to accept her feelings, carefully hugged Elysia and spoke softly.
“I’m sorry I couldn’t be with you while you were alive. I’m sorry I couldn’t watch over you as you grew up, when you were so small and innocent, and I couldn’t comfort you when you were suddenly trapped underground and confused, and I’m sorry I made you feel abandoned.”
“...”
“But Elysia, I have never stopped loving you. Even though I was unable to control the fate that was innate to me and left you alone, you are still my most beloved daughter, my first blessing.”
“...”
“So, Elysia, will you allow me to do so? So that I, the mother, can be with you after your death.”
The goddess begged earnestly that she might die with her beloved daughter.
Elyaia's expression, which had been blankly staring at the sight, distorted horribly.
“If that’s the case, if you love me enough to want to die with me, then at least tell me. Explain to me that I was born with the destiny to ruin the world, and that I have no choice but to be locked up like this. At least come see me sometimes. Then I would have understood. I would have quietly shut myself away and waited. Why now...!”
“...”
“What am I supposed to do if you do this now! I resented you without knowing anything, and I have been trembling with betrayal and resentment for thousands of years. What am I supposed to do? Why did you make me a sinner with no one to resent, why!”
“Elysia...”
As if to remove the congestion in her chest, the resentment she constantly spewed out was mixed with a childish sob.
The goddess, who had been looking at her daughter with pained eyes, hugged her again.
“I’m sorry, Elysia. It’s all mother’s fault. I couldn’t bear to tell you that you were born with such a fate. Blame your mother, Elysia.”
Elysia did not reject her embrace. Instead, she cried louder, as if pouring out the loneliness that had been building up for a long time.
Tears of regret flowed from the eyes of the goddess as she gently patted her daughter's back.
So the two of them hugged each other and cried for a long time.
***
After the long mourning between mother and daughter, the goddess briefly let go of Elysia, whom she thought she would never let go of, and approached Bayen, who was lying down.
Bayen, who had given up all of his divine powers along with those of his mother that he had taken away, was on the verge of death.
The goddess, who was looking at her son with pained eyes as he gasped for breath so hard that it was painful to watch, held Bayen in her arms and kissed him deeply on the forehead.
At that moment, a wisp of white light emanated from the goddess's body and slowly flowed into Bayen's body.
Then, his irregular breathing gradually began to stabilize, and color returned to his pale face.
On the contrary, the goddess who gave all her life force to her son was transformed into the appearance of a sick person in an instant.
"Mother!"
Confusion appeared on Bayen's face as he hurriedly caught the goddess falling to the floor helplessly.
“Mother, why...”
“Don’t be sad, my dear. From the beginning, I planned to end my life with Elysia when everything was over. I’m just sorry that I put such a big burden on you in the process.”
"Mother..."
The goddess reached out with difficulty and caressed her son's cheek.
“I got you involved in the death of the woman you loved, even though I knew how much it hurt you. I’m so sorry.”
“It’s not something for which Mother should apologize. Even if you are a goddess, once fate has been decided, it cannot be changed.”
“Yes, that’s right. But I am a sinner because I failed to prevent what I could have prevented in advance, using the excuse of motherhood, and I shifted the responsibility to you. I am unworthy of being a mother or a goddess. So, Janette, I leave it to you now. Follow in my footsteps and become the master of this world, and look after my creatures.”
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