TVTLQ - Chapter 155

There were many things I wanted to say, but the first thing that came out of my mouth was a reprimand.

I wondered.

What had he been thinking about me all this time?

The other person was unconscious, and I was left alone, and I had time to solve the problem with Estelle.

So I thought and thought again.

I don't know what Calix's true intentions were.

'I wonder if he was sincere in the first place.'

I couldn't imagine where the lie had come from.

Calix doesn't have any children, so the child he bought is fake.

Encountering Dominic and Calix at the same time in the square must have been a situation he had concocted.

Yes, it was all a lie from the beginning.

After all, Dominic Willock didn't exist in the world in the first place.

"Rosenia, I'm..."

"How many points did I have? If you count the fun you had from me, it would be a score."

I didn't know that the other person was making fun of me, and I lived alone in delusion.

I thought he was serious about me.

I felt secure when he cared about me, and I felt proud when he praised my ability.

And when I told him I loved him, I felt irreplaceable joy.

By telling him that I liked him, I was able to belong to this world.

It swayed like a float on the sea and finally decided to settle down in one place.

But it was all a lie.

What can I say if I don't call this deception?

"Please tell me it's a misunderstanding. If you don't, my past days will be wasted."

"Rosenia, please!"

He grabbed my hand.

His brow furrowed slightly, feeling pain in the wound from the over-movement.

"Please don't say that. As for fun, you weren't a game for me."

"And then?"

"I love you."

It was bizarre.

I wanted Dominic to tell me he loved me.

And since Calix was Mr. Dominic, I ended up getting what I wanted.

But how can my heart not beat like this?

"I'm sorry. I wasn't supposed to lie in the first place. Let me explain it all. The ring, the blue ring I was wearing..."

"Was it something that made you change your appearance?"

"That's right."

He nodded hastily.

I gave him a quick glance at his thumb, which was broken and he wasn't wearing anything.

"I was curious about you. That's why I wanted to reach out. But Rosenia has always refused to approach me, so I... change my appearance."

"It was all my fault."

"No."

He raised his voice urgently.

His eyes twinkled as if they were waves.

"It's not your fault. It was all my choice. It was my decision and I did it. Rosenia has done nothing wrong."

"..."

"I'm really sorry. I know I can't help it if you despise me. But trust me. I love you, and that's what I really mean,"

"You know what, Duke? I've already heard the Duke apologize many times. And I love you."

Even if it wasn't real, but in a dream.

"In my dream, the Duke, or Mr. Dominic, or something that hides its appearance. When he told me he loved me, I was just happy and sad. I was so happy that I didn't want to wake up, even though I knew it was a dream. But after all, dreams and reality are not the same."

I winked.

"Do you know how I'm feeling?"

"Rosenia..."

"I want to cut out my heart so that I can't feel anything."

Something hot rushed up my throat.

"I hate myself for being deceived by the Duke's pranks, and I can't stand for it. If I could, I'd want to erase all my memories and become an idiot. What the hell was the Duke thinking when he saw me being fooled? Did you feel superior because you thought I was a stupid woman? Or did you make a bet with yourself when I found out?"

"Rosenia, I..."

"Call me Pierre."

I didn't want to be called Rosenia by him.

I clenched my fists.

"Are you serious about loving me? Lie. It's all a lie. None of what the Duke told me was true. You were a lie from beginning to end. Even when Dominic came to me and left, and when he came to me for what he really was!"

My voice grew louder and louder. I couldn't control my anger.

"His Majesty the Emperor wants to marry you, that's a lie, isn't it? Your son seemed so pretty, but that's a lie. I didn't know that, and I thought I shouldn't catch a man with a child. Ha, stupid!"

Penelope was right.

I wasn't supposed to like him.

The person who left me was someone I didn't deserve to like.

"But you really love me, so trust me? How ridiculous can you be to say such a thing to me? In the eyes of the Duke, do I look like a house dog that comes and goes when I come? What the hell do you want me to look at?"

My body heaved up and down in full excitement.

My head was hot and I felt like I was going crazy.

I felt like my body wasn't mine.

"The Duke doesn't love me. That's the only truth."

"Rosenia, please... Nope."

"You've had many opportunities to reveal the truth. Don't deny it. You know that. You could tell me the truth as much as you wanted. When you saved me from being kidnapped when you asked me to be your contract lover, or not."

I swallowed dryly.

"Before you tell me you love me and kiss me."

Although Mr. Dominic was gone, the night I kissed him, remained one of the happiest memories of my life.

It was the kind of fate that even if I met someone else in the future, or if I had to live my life alone, I would remember that day with warmth.

But the one who gave me the happiest memories destroyed them himself.

"You've put in a lot of effort, Duke. Really."

Did you need to deceive me like this?

What the hell am I saying.

"I don't understand. I don't even know where I'm supposed to start understanding. You're so complicated and terrible."

"Rosenia."

Faced with a pale face, he stood up.

He slid to the floor and knelt in front of me.

I could see his upper body, which had been wrapped in a white bandage, he didn't let go of my hand.

"I'm sorry. It's all my fault. But I didn't do it to hurt you."

"I suppose so."

"Hiding the existence of the ring led to an ever-increasing number of lies. I had to lie again to hide my lies. But it was never done with disturbing intentions. At first, I thought I could hide myself because I thought I was just going to get away with it for a while, but at some point, my heart got too big..."

"Then you should have stopped."

I cut off Calix's words.

"You should have stopped before you told the ridiculous lies that you had a child and that you had a widowed wife. Have you ever thought about how I would feel after such rejection? I wanted to catch it, but I couldn't. I'm afraid I'm going to break the bond with you, I'm going to make it harder for someone who had made a tough decision, so I did it."

I felt like I was going to cry.

Turbulent emotions swept over me.

I didn't want to cry, at least in front of Calix, so I took a deep breath.

I calmed my pounding heart and put a gentle smile on my lips.

"Wake up, Duke."

I grabbed him kindly and pulled him to his feet.

"The floor is cold. You've just woken up, and the cold isn't going to be good for you."

And Calix's face contorted in despair at the realization that it was kindness that hinted at the worst possible outcome.

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