It was then that I met eyes with Carsis, who had been kissing Deborah with indifferent eyes the whole time.
Because of that, my already creaky body became as hard as a stone.
But unlike my trembling green eyes, Carsis' brown eyes are indifferent.
He wasn't even a little shaken, even though he knew that I was watching everything.
The gaze of a ferocious beast encountered in the dogfighting arena.
He was just looking at me with those sticky eyes that seemed like they would swallow me up.
And...
It was from that moment that Carsis, who had been absentmindedly kissing, changed.
The face that had seemed bored at first glance disappeared. He began to speak in a different, more impatient tone than before.
“Yes, wait a minute... hmm.”
He ignored Deborah, who was feeling anxious and looked only at Ellie.
I took a step back without realizing it.
Because Carsis' persistent gaze as if he was going to eat me, created the illusion that I was alone with Carsis.
Because it felt like it was me, kissing him.
I have to go back, I have to get out of here...
It felt like there were unbreakable chains around my ankles.
My mind began to become disjointed, like the pink hair tangled between his fingers.
My heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to burst.
At that moment, Carsis' face tilted down.
I flinched and ran away from the place.
And I didn't see it. He was smiling, looking at the empty space where I had been.
'Elizabeth.'
A man who whispers my name silently.
Bang!
My body slid down as I closed the door.
After that, I didn't know how to return to my room.
Because I just moved my legs with the single thought of getting out of there quickly.
'What was that just now?'
It seemed as if the smell of love was still lingering in my nose, making it difficult to dismiss it as a dream or a mistake.
“What the heck...”
Since when have you two been like that?
Did Elizabeth know this?
Was the reason why I couldn't see Carsis well as soon as I arrived at Lytskar because of Deborah?
A myriad of questions poured endlessly into my head.
The image of Deborah, who had been innocently crossing her arms until this afternoon, overlapped before my eyes.
"Elizabeth."
The delicate Yeong Lady who had a bright smile and an innocent voice as if she knew nothing had long since disappeared from my mind.
An inexplicable sense of betrayal swirled within me.
Who on earth do I feel betrayed by?
Deborah, who treated me with an innocent face?
Or not.
Carsis, who acted like I was everything to the world?
I was confused by the betrayal I couldn't identify, hugged my knees, and buried my face.
Everything Carsis has told me so far may have been a lie.
It may just be that in the capital, it was advantageous to show off, so they were just wrapping it up in plausible words.
'I want to go home...'
The hands holding both arms gained strength.
I didn't want to think about anything right now.
I wanted to go home.
Not the Cretian Mansion.
In my real 'home'.
Just like that, My vision was filled with a distant darkness.
A familiar scent tickled my nose.
At the same time, I felt something warm and fluffy gently wrapping around my body.
“Umm...”
My eyes opened slowly.
Then, what came into view was the familiar canopy of a bed.
The last thing I remember was clearly crouching in front of the door.
“Are you awake?”
At that time, I was just staring blankly into space.
A familiar voice was heard from next to me.
“...Carsis.”
Carsis was sitting on the bed, looking down at me.
I got up and blinked to try to understand the situation.
It seemed I had fallen asleep right in front of the door.
But why is Carsis here?
I thought you'd be by Deborah's side, of course.
It was while I was examining Carsis that I figured out his intentions.
A familiar scent emanated from Carsis.
Lavender.
The scent was also a signal that I was spending the night with Carsis.
“Why are you here?”
I asked in a colder voice than ever.
“I want to see the young lady.”
“...You came to see me?”
Amazing.
Just a little while ago, you were rolling around with Deborah.
Deborah, is it me next? Such negative thoughts kept popping up.
I shook my head with a slightly annoyed voice.
“I want to be alone... It’s late at night...”
“I’m sorry for making you look so ugly.”
As soon as I opened my lips, Carsis grabbed my hand.
But.
Slap.
I, who unconsciously felt repulsion towards Carsis, slapped his hand away.
I didn't have much to say about that.
"Miss..."
He looked up at me with trembling eyes as if he was shocked.
I couldn't help but laugh out loud at the sight of the man looking hurt.
"...Why."
Why are you kicking me out?
A look that seems to reproach oneself like that.
I would have felt sorry if I hadn't looked into that door, but not now.
'I don't like it. Really.'
A deep, unknown sense of betrayal stabbed at my lungs.
I quickly averted my unwelcome gaze from Carsis.
“Carsis. Go now. I don’t want to see your face right now.”
“...Why are you looking like that?”
"What?"
Are you saying this because you don't know?
Or are you doing it knowingly?
My brow furrowed as she looked at Carsis. But that only lasted for a moment.
All of my thoughts stopped as I listened to Carsis's words.
“I just did what you told me to do, Miss. Why do you look so hurt?”
"...What?"
My whole body was motionless as if wax was stuck to every bone.
He said I ordered Carsis to do it.
Do that with Deborah.
I moved my lips as if I was about to say something.
“...I... I told you... to hug Deborah...?”
I bit my trembling lips and barely managed to utter each word.
I hope I misheard.
But everything came crashing down at the words that Carsis spoke with a tone of resignation.
“Yes. It’s not the first time this has happened. Why all of a sudden...”
'Ha.'
My hands, holding the sheet, began to tremble.
'Elizabeth. What the hell are you?'
How far do you plan to show me the bottom?
As Elizabeth's past was revealed one by one, it felt like I was being consumed by an inescapable swamp.
A sin you did not commit becomes your own sin and suffocates you.
A woman who will soon become the Crown Princess, and then the Empress.
Elizabeth.
You are a truly vicious and wicked, damned wicked woman.
You disappeared without a trace, leaving me with all the guilt.
My nails dug into my palms in unbearable anger, and red drops of blood began to form one by one between the cracks in my hands.
Suddenly, Carsis was surprised to see me trembling with my fists clenched and stopped me.
“Don’t do that. It hurts.”
He licked my hand with his tongue in a hurry as if he didn't know what to do when he saw the blood.
Because of that, my already creaky body became as hard as a stone.
But unlike my trembling green eyes, Carsis' brown eyes are indifferent.
He wasn't even a little shaken, even though he knew that I was watching everything.
The gaze of a ferocious beast encountered in the dogfighting arena.
He was just looking at me with those sticky eyes that seemed like they would swallow me up.
And...
It was from that moment that Carsis, who had been absentmindedly kissing, changed.
The face that had seemed bored at first glance disappeared. He began to speak in a different, more impatient tone than before.
“Yes, wait a minute... hmm.”
He ignored Deborah, who was feeling anxious and looked only at Ellie.
I took a step back without realizing it.
Because Carsis' persistent gaze as if he was going to eat me, created the illusion that I was alone with Carsis.
Because it felt like it was me, kissing him.
I have to go back, I have to get out of here...
It felt like there were unbreakable chains around my ankles.
My mind began to become disjointed, like the pink hair tangled between his fingers.
My heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to burst.
At that moment, Carsis' face tilted down.
I flinched and ran away from the place.
And I didn't see it. He was smiling, looking at the empty space where I had been.
'Elizabeth.'
A man who whispers my name silently.
***
Bang!
My body slid down as I closed the door.
After that, I didn't know how to return to my room.
Because I just moved my legs with the single thought of getting out of there quickly.
'What was that just now?'
It seemed as if the smell of love was still lingering in my nose, making it difficult to dismiss it as a dream or a mistake.
“What the heck...”
Since when have you two been like that?
Did Elizabeth know this?
Was the reason why I couldn't see Carsis well as soon as I arrived at Lytskar because of Deborah?
A myriad of questions poured endlessly into my head.
The image of Deborah, who had been innocently crossing her arms until this afternoon, overlapped before my eyes.
"Elizabeth."
The delicate Yeong Lady who had a bright smile and an innocent voice as if she knew nothing had long since disappeared from my mind.
An inexplicable sense of betrayal swirled within me.
Who on earth do I feel betrayed by?
Deborah, who treated me with an innocent face?
Or not.
Carsis, who acted like I was everything to the world?
I was confused by the betrayal I couldn't identify, hugged my knees, and buried my face.
Everything Carsis has told me so far may have been a lie.
It may just be that in the capital, it was advantageous to show off, so they were just wrapping it up in plausible words.
'I want to go home...'
The hands holding both arms gained strength.
I didn't want to think about anything right now.
I wanted to go home.
Not the Cretian Mansion.
In my real 'home'.
Just like that, My vision was filled with a distant darkness.
***
A familiar scent tickled my nose.
At the same time, I felt something warm and fluffy gently wrapping around my body.
“Umm...”
My eyes opened slowly.
Then, what came into view was the familiar canopy of a bed.
The last thing I remember was clearly crouching in front of the door.
“Are you awake?”
At that time, I was just staring blankly into space.
A familiar voice was heard from next to me.
“...Carsis.”
Carsis was sitting on the bed, looking down at me.
I got up and blinked to try to understand the situation.
It seemed I had fallen asleep right in front of the door.
But why is Carsis here?
I thought you'd be by Deborah's side, of course.
It was while I was examining Carsis that I figured out his intentions.
A familiar scent emanated from Carsis.
Lavender.
The scent was also a signal that I was spending the night with Carsis.
“Why are you here?”
I asked in a colder voice than ever.
“I want to see the young lady.”
“...You came to see me?”
Amazing.
Just a little while ago, you were rolling around with Deborah.
Deborah, is it me next? Such negative thoughts kept popping up.
I shook my head with a slightly annoyed voice.
“I want to be alone... It’s late at night...”
“I’m sorry for making you look so ugly.”
As soon as I opened my lips, Carsis grabbed my hand.
But.
Slap.
I, who unconsciously felt repulsion towards Carsis, slapped his hand away.
I didn't have much to say about that.
"Miss..."
He looked up at me with trembling eyes as if he was shocked.
I couldn't help but laugh out loud at the sight of the man looking hurt.
"...Why."
Why are you kicking me out?
A look that seems to reproach oneself like that.
I would have felt sorry if I hadn't looked into that door, but not now.
'I don't like it. Really.'
A deep, unknown sense of betrayal stabbed at my lungs.
I quickly averted my unwelcome gaze from Carsis.
“Carsis. Go now. I don’t want to see your face right now.”
“...Why are you looking like that?”
"What?"
Are you saying this because you don't know?
Or are you doing it knowingly?
My brow furrowed as she looked at Carsis. But that only lasted for a moment.
All of my thoughts stopped as I listened to Carsis's words.
“I just did what you told me to do, Miss. Why do you look so hurt?”
"...What?"
My whole body was motionless as if wax was stuck to every bone.
He said I ordered Carsis to do it.
Do that with Deborah.
I moved my lips as if I was about to say something.
“...I... I told you... to hug Deborah...?”
I bit my trembling lips and barely managed to utter each word.
I hope I misheard.
But everything came crashing down at the words that Carsis spoke with a tone of resignation.
“Yes. It’s not the first time this has happened. Why all of a sudden...”
'Ha.'
My hands, holding the sheet, began to tremble.
'Elizabeth. What the hell are you?'
How far do you plan to show me the bottom?
As Elizabeth's past was revealed one by one, it felt like I was being consumed by an inescapable swamp.
A sin you did not commit becomes your own sin and suffocates you.
A woman who will soon become the Crown Princess, and then the Empress.
Elizabeth.
You are a truly vicious and wicked, damned wicked woman.
You disappeared without a trace, leaving me with all the guilt.
My nails dug into my palms in unbearable anger, and red drops of blood began to form one by one between the cracks in my hands.
Suddenly, Carsis was surprised to see me trembling with my fists clenched and stopped me.
“Don’t do that. It hurts.”
He licked my hand with his tongue in a hurry as if he didn't know what to do when he saw the blood.
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