“Rien, don’t look at me.”
“...?”
At the same time, his lips moved from the crown of my head to the nape of my neck. I bit my lower lip because of the stimulating feeling as if it was on fire.
His lips, without any leeway, bit my clothes that were hanging precariously.
The sleeves that had been hanging on his shoulders fell down below his waist.
“Roan?”
“I don’t want to show you that ugly, jealous look...”
Even though he didn't want to show it, his face, glimmering through the window, was already clearly visible against the night sky.
Even though the image was a little blurry, I could clearly see that his eyes were darker than the night sky.
There was a man there who was most unlikeable to the word ugly.
"Ah!"
Because of the clothes he had taken off, his hot body was pressed against my exposed back.
Naturally, I pressed my body against the cold window.
My body was slightly pressed against the huge, cold glass, and the cold and oppressive feeling gave me goosebumps.
Hot lips began to tease the back of my neck in earnest.
I didn't know where to put my hands, so I scratched the window with my fingertips.
Because of the high place I was in, I was stuck between the anxiety of the glass shattering and the eerie, stimulating desire behind me.
His desire to grow in size was palpable, showing off his enormous presence.
Rhodnes clung to me, buried his face in the nape of my neck, and groaned inside.
His hot breath scattered across my shoulders and the nape of my neck.
The breath had a clean, minty scent.
The hot hands of Rhodnes touched and lifted from my skin, which was covered in goosebumps, repeatedly.
The cold glass that touched my skin formed white vapor and disappeared.
Before I knew it, my body had become warm and red.
It was so stimulating to not be able to see myself as I usually do, that even the hairs on my ears stood on end.
“Roan, sometimes I...”
As his breathing grew heavier and he began to bite my shoulder, I shuddered and said,
“You’re so, so, so skilled... I feel cheated. You’re always so...”
Hot breath crashed roughly into my ear.
Only then, through his ragged breathing, could I hear a low laugh from his lips.
“Actually, it’s not my first time.”
"...What?"
His lips, which had been nibbling my shoulder, whispered right next to my ear.
“Since a very long time ago... you have always been in my dreams.”
“What are you talking about?”
“And in dreams, there is nothing I can’t do.”
“No, no!”
A low, half-joking voice soaked my eardrums with its hot breath.
“I told you, Rien. I always wanted you.”
Only then did he regain his natural smile. The man, who was like the only shining star in the dark night, had reddened eyes.
“In my dreams, we spent the night together many times.”
Every time the hot body temperature enveloped my whole body, goosebumps appeared all the way to my toes and my vision went white and then black repeatedly.
A hot and humid place where anxiety, jealousy, desire, and joy are mixed.
But it is such a sweet fountain of pleasure.
“Since I was very young...”
The dreamlike man who ruled this dark space brought his lips closer to my ear.
Rhodnes' dark gaze gazed deeply into the 'small forest' visible through the large window.
At the same time, a low, sinister voice crawled into my ear like a snake.
“I always wanted us to be this close, Rien.”
It was the sound of an endless night beginning.
Rhodnes repeatedly ignored the Emperor's letters.
“Roan, now, stop...”
“I want to do it more because you’re not interested in me.”
The feeling of him touching my back was hot and creepy.
A tremendous amount of correspondence arrived overnight, both to Rhodnes and to me.
For me, it was mostly about the letters Bianca and Olivia sent to the capital with my father and the contents of the canonization.
The situation was similar for Rhodnes, but the only difference between him and me was that the people writing to him were Count Raylon and Siscometin, who had newly decided to support Rhodnes, people he did not like.
A hot hand dug into my armpit from behind and grabbed my shoulder tightly.
Rhodnes, who was spitting out hot breath on the back of my neck as if throwing a tantrum, secretly rubbed my body.
A groan came out of my mouth without my knowledge.
It was because I spent the night with him from early evening until dawn without being able to leave the bedroom. In short, it means that I couldn't even sleep properly.
“Why are you not interested in me? I’ve been stuck with you all night and now you’re the only thing on my mind.”
At my loud voice, he hugged me tightly from behind and didn't respond for a long time.
“Are you listening?”
“...Say it again.”
I felt a firm cheek rubbing against the back of my head. His hand gripping my shoulder tightened.
“Again, you say there’s no one else in your head but me.”
“...”
"Huh?"
He gently grabbed my chin with one hand and led me back.
His ecstatic, twinkling eyes were shining earnestly at me.
My cheeks were extremely red in his eyes.
As I realized it, my ears felt hotter and as if they were on fire.
I thought back over what I had just said without thinking, and I was so embarrassed that I couldn't stand it.
I tried to turn my wavering gaze in the exact opposite direction to his earnest eyes.
When my trembling eyelashes cast a shadow as dark as my downcast gaze, I was barely able to open my mouth.
“Right now. All I care about is you, Roan. Right now... there’s only you in my head.”
For a moment.
A flash of glitter poured down before my eyes.
His platinum hair, shining cleanly in the morning sunlight, fell on my cheek, and his hot lips immediately attached themselves to mine.
The ecstatic kiss immediately brought back memories of last night.
My body, which had been warming up again, suddenly began to heat up.
A low voice that tickles the heart.
A firm body that hugs me more tightly as I feel myself rising into the sky and crashing back down to the ground.
He keeps saying that he loves me, and even whispers in the end without holding back on pleading.
There was not a single thing that did not move.
Knock knock.
"Your Highness."
As Vincenzo's voice flowed into the room a little more strongly, Rhodnes kissed the corner of my mouth and slowly got up.
Every time I saw him, I wondered if he was the same person, but his healthy body was soon wrapped in decent clothes.
I also put on the clothes Jonah had brought me at dawn and went out to meet her.
It was impossible to follow him to the front door right away because my neck was stained with marks left by Rhodnes.
“Today, all sorts of people will be holding me back and not letting me go. I’ve been having meaningless meetings until you came. Don’t come to the canonization ceremony in the afternoon and rest here. You’ll just end up wasting your eyes. I’ll take care of the Doris Castagna case and come back.”
Rhodnes said goodbye with a short, regretful kiss.
“Just wait. You eat something sweet and rest in a warm place, and I’ll come back when I’m done.”
I stood by the window and watched Rhodnes mount the horse with Vincenzo.
When I met the eyes of Rhodnes, who had raised his head towards me, he smiled at me as if he owned the world.
Vincenzo was seen shaking his head beside him.
I smiled and waved at him.
Rhodnes also waved his hand lightly and left the private residence.
“Roan, I...”
I traced the cold window surface with my fingertips over his back as he left.
“I always wanted to help the people I love.”
I was no longer sick or in pain, and even after staying up all night with Rhodnes, I was able to wake up and see him off in perfect health.
Rhodnes will never know how heartbreaking this is for me.
Of course, I will wait for him as Lord Rhodnes instructed.
But just like when I loved Noevian...
'I wish there was something I could do for you.'
I wouldn't be waiting around like that, doing nothing.
“The desire to protect the person you love is the same.”
Just as it is Rhodnes's love that wants to do all the hard and dirty work, I am also someone who cannot stand by and watch Rhodnes trying to face the difficult path alone.
How can I live the same way as before when I can have the healthy body I so desperately wanted while still being Adrienne, not Blie?
'I have my own way too.'
For you and for myself... I will do everything I can.
“...That’s my love.”
The door to the private residence is completely closed.
Even the sound of Rhodnes's horse's hooves grew distant.
I stared blankly at my face reflected in the window.
I know a woman with a face exactly like this one, a woman I want to wake up and talk to, a woman I want to see happy.
Knock knock.
“Madam, let’s stop complaining and get back to what we have to do.”
I got angry and told him to knock before I left, but now Ephero's voice, who had finally started knocking, cut through the bedroom.
“The great sorcerer left her private quarters at dawn, so we should go out too.”
I buttoned up my collar and greeted Ephero.
The day dawns when I will begin my fight.
“...?”
At the same time, his lips moved from the crown of my head to the nape of my neck. I bit my lower lip because of the stimulating feeling as if it was on fire.
His lips, without any leeway, bit my clothes that were hanging precariously.
The sleeves that had been hanging on his shoulders fell down below his waist.
“Roan?”
“I don’t want to show you that ugly, jealous look...”
Even though he didn't want to show it, his face, glimmering through the window, was already clearly visible against the night sky.
Even though the image was a little blurry, I could clearly see that his eyes were darker than the night sky.
There was a man there who was most unlikeable to the word ugly.
"Ah!"
Because of the clothes he had taken off, his hot body was pressed against my exposed back.
Naturally, I pressed my body against the cold window.
My body was slightly pressed against the huge, cold glass, and the cold and oppressive feeling gave me goosebumps.
Hot lips began to tease the back of my neck in earnest.
I didn't know where to put my hands, so I scratched the window with my fingertips.
Because of the high place I was in, I was stuck between the anxiety of the glass shattering and the eerie, stimulating desire behind me.
His desire to grow in size was palpable, showing off his enormous presence.
Rhodnes clung to me, buried his face in the nape of my neck, and groaned inside.
His hot breath scattered across my shoulders and the nape of my neck.
The breath had a clean, minty scent.
The hot hands of Rhodnes touched and lifted from my skin, which was covered in goosebumps, repeatedly.
The cold glass that touched my skin formed white vapor and disappeared.
Before I knew it, my body had become warm and red.
It was so stimulating to not be able to see myself as I usually do, that even the hairs on my ears stood on end.
“Roan, sometimes I...”
As his breathing grew heavier and he began to bite my shoulder, I shuddered and said,
“You’re so, so, so skilled... I feel cheated. You’re always so...”
Hot breath crashed roughly into my ear.
Only then, through his ragged breathing, could I hear a low laugh from his lips.
“Actually, it’s not my first time.”
"...What?"
His lips, which had been nibbling my shoulder, whispered right next to my ear.
“Since a very long time ago... you have always been in my dreams.”
“What are you talking about?”
“And in dreams, there is nothing I can’t do.”
“No, no!”
A low, half-joking voice soaked my eardrums with its hot breath.
“I told you, Rien. I always wanted you.”
Only then did he regain his natural smile. The man, who was like the only shining star in the dark night, had reddened eyes.
“In my dreams, we spent the night together many times.”
Every time the hot body temperature enveloped my whole body, goosebumps appeared all the way to my toes and my vision went white and then black repeatedly.
A hot and humid place where anxiety, jealousy, desire, and joy are mixed.
But it is such a sweet fountain of pleasure.
“Since I was very young...”
The dreamlike man who ruled this dark space brought his lips closer to my ear.
Rhodnes' dark gaze gazed deeply into the 'small forest' visible through the large window.
At the same time, a low, sinister voice crawled into my ear like a snake.
“I always wanted us to be this close, Rien.”
It was the sound of an endless night beginning.
***
Rhodnes repeatedly ignored the Emperor's letters.
“Roan, now, stop...”
“I want to do it more because you’re not interested in me.”
The feeling of him touching my back was hot and creepy.
A tremendous amount of correspondence arrived overnight, both to Rhodnes and to me.
For me, it was mostly about the letters Bianca and Olivia sent to the capital with my father and the contents of the canonization.
The situation was similar for Rhodnes, but the only difference between him and me was that the people writing to him were Count Raylon and Siscometin, who had newly decided to support Rhodnes, people he did not like.
A hot hand dug into my armpit from behind and grabbed my shoulder tightly.
Rhodnes, who was spitting out hot breath on the back of my neck as if throwing a tantrum, secretly rubbed my body.
A groan came out of my mouth without my knowledge.
It was because I spent the night with him from early evening until dawn without being able to leave the bedroom. In short, it means that I couldn't even sleep properly.
“Why are you not interested in me? I’ve been stuck with you all night and now you’re the only thing on my mind.”
At my loud voice, he hugged me tightly from behind and didn't respond for a long time.
“Are you listening?”
“...Say it again.”
I felt a firm cheek rubbing against the back of my head. His hand gripping my shoulder tightened.
“Again, you say there’s no one else in your head but me.”
“...”
"Huh?"
He gently grabbed my chin with one hand and led me back.
His ecstatic, twinkling eyes were shining earnestly at me.
My cheeks were extremely red in his eyes.
As I realized it, my ears felt hotter and as if they were on fire.
I thought back over what I had just said without thinking, and I was so embarrassed that I couldn't stand it.
I tried to turn my wavering gaze in the exact opposite direction to his earnest eyes.
When my trembling eyelashes cast a shadow as dark as my downcast gaze, I was barely able to open my mouth.
“Right now. All I care about is you, Roan. Right now... there’s only you in my head.”
For a moment.
A flash of glitter poured down before my eyes.
His platinum hair, shining cleanly in the morning sunlight, fell on my cheek, and his hot lips immediately attached themselves to mine.
The ecstatic kiss immediately brought back memories of last night.
My body, which had been warming up again, suddenly began to heat up.
Knock knock.
The once sweet breath became rougher and rougher, and even the places that weren't touching it became hot as if they were on fire when someone knocked on the door from outside.
As he had done all night when the letter arrived, Rhodnes ignored the noise and focused on me.
Knock knock.
"Your Highness."
The voice sounded more urgent, so I slowly turned around and pushed his chest.
His lips, still filled with regret, parted, and his eyes, as he ran the back of his hand over his wet lips, were hazy like a drunken person.
“I heard that too.”
“It must be urgent, you should go now.”
A glimmer of resentment briefly appeared in his eyes as he gradually returned to his guns, then disappeared.
But that was only for a moment, as Rhodnes took me into his arms and took a deep breath.
“I have to work. You drive me crazy. You disobeyed my orders to wait somewhere safe, but when I see you, I can’t control myself. The unfair things. The things that make me sad. The things that make me angry. The things that make me want to destroy everything... You just make me forget it all.”
It's because of you.
A serious, low voice crept between the beds.
“I want to roll around like this for days, months.”
“Still, Roan.”
I had to try to keep my voice calm and collected, even though my body was burning hot and about to explode.
Anxiety about important plans. Uncertainty about the future. All of that just flew away for me when I was with Rhodnes.
The once sweet breath became rougher and rougher, and even the places that weren't touching it became hot as if they were on fire when someone knocked on the door from outside.
As he had done all night when the letter arrived, Rhodnes ignored the noise and focused on me.
Knock knock.
"Your Highness."
The voice sounded more urgent, so I slowly turned around and pushed his chest.
His lips, still filled with regret, parted, and his eyes, as he ran the back of his hand over his wet lips, were hazy like a drunken person.
“I heard that too.”
“It must be urgent, you should go now.”
A glimmer of resentment briefly appeared in his eyes as he gradually returned to his guns, then disappeared.
But that was only for a moment, as Rhodnes took me into his arms and took a deep breath.
“I have to work. You drive me crazy. You disobeyed my orders to wait somewhere safe, but when I see you, I can’t control myself. The unfair things. The things that make me sad. The things that make me angry. The things that make me want to destroy everything... You just make me forget it all.”
It's because of you.
A serious, low voice crept between the beds.
“I want to roll around like this for days, months.”
“Still, Roan.”
I had to try to keep my voice calm and collected, even though my body was burning hot and about to explode.
Anxiety about important plans. Uncertainty about the future. All of that just flew away for me when I was with Rhodnes.
A low voice that tickles the heart.
A firm body that hugs me more tightly as I feel myself rising into the sky and crashing back down to the ground.
He keeps saying that he loves me, and even whispers in the end without holding back on pleading.
There was not a single thing that did not move.
Knock knock.
"Your Highness."
As Vincenzo's voice flowed into the room a little more strongly, Rhodnes kissed the corner of my mouth and slowly got up.
Every time I saw him, I wondered if he was the same person, but his healthy body was soon wrapped in decent clothes.
I also put on the clothes Jonah had brought me at dawn and went out to meet her.
It was impossible to follow him to the front door right away because my neck was stained with marks left by Rhodnes.
“Today, all sorts of people will be holding me back and not letting me go. I’ve been having meaningless meetings until you came. Don’t come to the canonization ceremony in the afternoon and rest here. You’ll just end up wasting your eyes. I’ll take care of the Doris Castagna case and come back.”
Rhodnes said goodbye with a short, regretful kiss.
“Just wait. You eat something sweet and rest in a warm place, and I’ll come back when I’m done.”
I stood by the window and watched Rhodnes mount the horse with Vincenzo.
When I met the eyes of Rhodnes, who had raised his head towards me, he smiled at me as if he owned the world.
Vincenzo was seen shaking his head beside him.
I smiled and waved at him.
Rhodnes also waved his hand lightly and left the private residence.
“Roan, I...”
I traced the cold window surface with my fingertips over his back as he left.
“I always wanted to help the people I love.”
I was no longer sick or in pain, and even after staying up all night with Rhodnes, I was able to wake up and see him off in perfect health.
Rhodnes will never know how heartbreaking this is for me.
Of course, I will wait for him as Lord Rhodnes instructed.
But just like when I loved Noevian...
'I wish there was something I could do for you.'
I wouldn't be waiting around like that, doing nothing.
“The desire to protect the person you love is the same.”
Just as it is Rhodnes's love that wants to do all the hard and dirty work, I am also someone who cannot stand by and watch Rhodnes trying to face the difficult path alone.
How can I live the same way as before when I can have the healthy body I so desperately wanted while still being Adrienne, not Blie?
'I have my own way too.'
For you and for myself... I will do everything I can.
“...That’s my love.”
The door to the private residence is completely closed.
Even the sound of Rhodnes's horse's hooves grew distant.
I stared blankly at my face reflected in the window.
I know a woman with a face exactly like this one, a woman I want to wake up and talk to, a woman I want to see happy.
Knock knock.
“Madam, let’s stop complaining and get back to what we have to do.”
I got angry and told him to knock before I left, but now Ephero's voice, who had finally started knocking, cut through the bedroom.
“The great sorcerer left her private quarters at dawn, so we should go out too.”
I buttoned up my collar and greeted Ephero.
The day dawns when I will begin my fight.
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