MAD - Chapter 17 πŸ”žπŸ”ž




Elze woke up after sleeping for a whole day. But even when Elze woke up, Shan still hadn't come to her senses. Elze had to move around frantically without even having time to calm her body.

Elze first put everything on hold until Shan woke up, and only exchanged basic information with the Britain royal family.

If things were as they were, Elze should have stepped forward and made contact. But Elze didn't. Even if it was Heglatan's plan, it was something that happened in Britain. If things went wrong, it could have turned into a diplomatic conflict, and become a fight between Britain and Baluar.

In the meantime, if Elze were to step forward, then from that moment on, everything she says and does would be solidified as the Targayel family's official position. It would be disadvantageous to move rashly. For now, it would be right to wait for Shan to wake up.

Instead, Elze assigned the task of contacting the royal court of Britain to the Knight Commander, Liv. The Countess told him to lie that she was recovering from the shock of the day, and then told him what had happened at the time and what he needed to convey to the royal court.

The story was that Shan had been poisoned and that Heglatan's assassins, disguised as knights and grooms, had made a surprise attack. She explained the situation in as much detail as she could, but there was one crucial detail missing.

How did you survive Heglatan's surprise attack that very day?

Liv must have felt that empty space too. But he just listened silently. Elze was secretly grateful that he didn’t ask questions. Of course, even if he had asked, Elze had nothing to say.

After roughly finishing up the urgent work, Elze quietly headed to the empty room in the corner of the dorm. Elze and the others were gathered there. It was a secret gathering place so as not to be noticed by others.

“...”

The purpose of the meeting was to discuss the current situation. However, no one was able to speak easily. After a period of silence, Elze was the first to speak.

"Sorry."

And as soon as Elze finished speaking, the three of them spoke at the same time.

“It’s nothing to be sorry about.”

“No need to be sorry!”

“What are you sorry about?”

Shan now knows that Erzenes is Elze.

It was an inevitable choice, but Elze felt sorry for Elijah. Because of Elze, Elijah had become deeply entangled in Targayel, and they had already sacrificed a lot for Elze.

In that situation, they revealed the secret they had been trying so hard to hide with their own hands. Elze couldn't help but feel sorry. Ivanna leaned against Tarkun and said.

“The coachman’s accent had a faint hint of Heglatan. That’s why I had Rapine load the commander’s sword onto the carriage.”

The clever Ivanna didn't miss the Heglatan accent in the common language. She shrugged her shoulders and summarized the situation.

“The poison that Cirxus was hit with reacts to a specific scent. It was so hard to obtain that even Cirxus had no resistance. In fact, it’s a poison that can knock down an elephant, but it’s a strange thing that it didn’t kill him. It’s so powerful.”

Ivanna sighed for a moment, then continued.

“But I have accurately figured it out and deciphered it, and Cirxus's resilience is beyond human standards, so he will wake up soon. I expect him to regain consciousness sometime tomorrow.”

And before Shan could open his eyes... Elze had to choose. Run away, stay, or do something else. In front of Elze, who was struggling, Rapine spoke as if it was absolutely natural.

“We will follow the captain’s will.”

Tarkun intervened, his arms folded and hesitating.

“Well, that’s just my opinion.”

Ivanna, who was leaning against Tarkun, asked, “Do you even know how to think?” but Tarkun continued to speak stubbornly.

“That guy owes you his life three times now. I don’t think he’d act so recklessly.”

“That’s true.”

Ivanna nodded, and Tarkun added one more thing.

“And it seems like Cirxus likes the captain?”

“What?”

Ivanna, who was about to nod her head, jumped up. Then she hit Tarkun on the arm with a loud thud, telling him not to talk nonsense.

“Ah, you witch! Stop hitting me! No, it looks like he did when I looked at it!”

Tarkun, who had been growling and bickering with Ivanna for a while, rubbed his hit arm and said.

“Anyway, Captain, I don’t think you need to run away. Go talk to Cirxus.”

Elze nodded slowly.

***

Elze had a crazy day. She was tired both physically and mentally, so she wanted to go to bed early. But she couldn't sleep. It was because she hadn't decided what to do yet.

Suddenly, in her complicated mind, she had thought that she wanted to see Shan’s face. She thought that if she just saw his face, her heart would calm down a little. Maybe it would help her make a decision.

Elze went to the bedroom where Shan was sleeping. She pushed away the people standing guard in front of the bedroom and entered the room alone. The bedroom was quiet as darkness fell. Elze closed the door without thinking and looked around the bedroom, but her body froze.

“...”

In a dark bedroom with only one candle lit, a man was seen standing with his back to the window that was pouring in the moonlight. Even in the darkness, his clear purple eyes were staring straight at Elze. The gaze that met her without preparation dug deep like a sharp awl. Elze called his name with a trembling voice.

“Shan...?”

When did it happen? She hadn't heard that he had regained consciousness. Her heart raced at the unexpected situation. She was confused as to why her heart started to pound.

Right now, she wanted to open the closed door behind her and run out. But on the other hand, she wanted to run to him and hug him. Her feelings were so complicated that even Elze herself couldn't understand them.

In front of Elze, who was confused and didn't know what to do, Shan slowly opened his mouth. The most familiar yet unfamiliar name flowed out of his mouth.

“...Elze.”

***

The third life debt... That is probably a debt that he will never be able to repay even if he dedicates his entire life to it.

When he ate mille-feuille at lunch with the Prince of Britain, Shan knew that he was poisoned.

The faint bitterness was quickly overshadowed by the sweetness, but it was not enough for Shan to miss. It seemed as if the Prince was unaware of this. It was probably a plot by one of Shan’s many enemies who hated him.

Shan just ate it without showing it. Since he was resistant to most poisons anyway, this was just a mild discomfort.

However, Shan had no idea that the scents inside the carriage would combine to create another poison. Until he smelled the scent inside the carriage, he simply thought that he was not feeling well and passed it off. However, as the carriage moved further away from the Britain royal castle, Shan realized that something was wrong.

When he realized it, paralysis had already set in. His breathing became difficult and his body became stiff. Erzenes looked at him worriedly from the other side. He wanted to tell her that everything was fine, that he was okay. But what came out of Shan’s mouth was not the words “okay” but dark red blood.

"Shan!"

With the blood soaking through Erzenes' dress, Shan realized that his body was not listening to him. From then on, things spiraled out of control.

"Die, you enemy of Heglatan!!"

He knew that Heglatan was after him, but he never expected this to happen.

What bothered Shan the most was the fact that Erzenes had also been involved because of him. He wanted to make her escape. However, it was difficult to just stay conscious. He didn't know what kind of poison it was, but he felt like he would die if he moved even a little bit.

The two letters of the word ‘death’ loomed before Shan.

Before, it had no meaning. There was no reason to live, so there was no reason to fear death. But not now. If Shan fell here, Erzenes didn't know what would happen. He had to protect her somehow. He had to protect her, but... He couldn't move.

He was scared. It was the first time in his life that he felt scared. He was afraid that he wouldn't be able to protect her, and that she would get into trouble.

He felt like he was going crazy. If there was a demon, he wanted to beg him to protect her, even if it meant selling his soul. But Shan learned that she didn't need to find a demon.

"I will show you the answer you were looking for from now on."

Elze spoke, with two swords shining proudly.

"Pay your third life debt and then die, Shan Cirxus."

His heart sank at those words.

Shan had a guess. He thought Erzenes might be Elze. But just guessing and the moment when the guess became reality was completely different.

There was no doubt about the sight of her holding a rapier and a mangosh. It was Elze of Elijah that Shan had been searching for so long.

Blood burst out of his mouth again. His clothes were soaked with blood. But Shan had no time to worry about his body. He couldn't take his eyes off her.

When she first hesitated and got stabbed by the sword, his heart sank. However, Elze took the life of her opponent instead of being wounded and soon began to push forward completely.

She was beautiful. The sight of her slashing enemies with her slender sword was more elegant than any other lady, and incredibly captivating.

His heart was trembling, almost painfully. No matter what he brought at this moment, it could not be as beautiful as her.

But Shan couldn't just sit by and watch. While Elze was fighting against the knights of Heglatan, the coachman who had been hiding in the corner slowly crawled out. He took Shan, who was paralyzed and unable to move, as a hostage.

"Stop!!"

Elze had just finished the last Heglatan. Elze turned around at the coachman's shout. Then, she looked surprised when she saw Shan being caught. The coachman threatened Shan, holding a dagger to his neck.

"Put the knife, put the knife down!!"

Elze obediently put down her sword as the coachman ordered and came forward as he wished. The coachman's breathing became ragged as he saw Elze bowing obediently and coming in.

Elze, wearing a dress that was completely torn, was revealing her white flesh. The somehow precarious appearance was dangerous and yet alluring. Even Shan thought it was pretty.

Shan was like that, so the coachman was beyond words. He was so excited that he couldn't even tell what was right and wrong. Filthy words were flowing out of his mouth, having lost his senses.

"Take off your clothes in front of me."

Shan wants to kill him. A strong murderous intent burned inside him. His eyes turned bright red. No, he wouldn't feel better if he just killed him. Even if he chewed his flesh raw and tore his entire body apart, it wouldn't be enough.

But there was nothing he could do. He could only watch. He could only watch as his woman was being treated so badly right before his eyes.

Shan was resentful of his body which couldn't even make a sound. He felt like he was going to explode with anger and self-loathing. The emotions that had crossed his limits touched a place deep inside him, and something stirred.

Instinct warned of a very violent squirm. The string that had been holding Shan down had already snapped. Just as he was about to shake violently, Elze's soft voice was heard.

"Stay still."

His heart, which seemed ready to burst at any moment, magically calmed down at the sound of that voice. The intense emotions from just a moment ago cooled down as if they were a lie.

Elze, who confirmed that Shan was real, grabbed the clothes with her hands. White skin was revealed behind the flowing piece of cloth. The excited coachman gasped and reached out to Elze. It was the moment when his hand was about to touch Elze.

"Hyah!!"

Elze's fist struck the coachman down with a swift blow. Then she cut off his head cleanly with the dagger. A stream of hot blood poured out from the coachman's neck.

A sense of relief enveloped Shan as a hot breath rushed through his veins. The moment he relaxed, the consciousness he had barely managed to hold onto suddenly faded away.

He felt a warm hand. Elze hugged Shan's body, which was becoming stiff and cold, and shouted frantically.

"Don't die. I will save you. I will definitely save you!"

Shan thought, his wife is a monster on the battlefield, so that's good.

And now... He feels like he can’t live without her.

***

There was no set answer for Elze. How would Shan react when he found out that Erzenes was Elze, and what would he do...?

But the moment of truth came suddenly, without any time to prepare. Shan woke up and called Elze's name.

"...Elze.”

The moment he called her name, Erzenes became Elze.

The dark and quiet bedroom was so quiet that even the sound of a collar rustling sounded like thunder. Elze couldn't move. She just stood there blankly.

Shan couldn't wait for Elze like that. He strode over to her and hugged her tightly. Elze, who was in his arms, let out a breath she had been holding without realizing it. His hand tightly hugged her waist, and the other hand cupped her face. His rough, impatient hand lifted her chin. Elze looked up at him.

Shan's purple eyes were swirling deeply. She looked into them for a moment, but her head was spinning. He spoke as if he was scratching deep inside.

“Why did you lie to me?”

The question, thrown without any explanation, was filled with anger and desperation. Elze could sense that Shan was just as confused as she was. That was why she answered him honestly.

“Because I couldn’t say it.”

Shan's face is distorted. He clenched his molars and asked in a suppressed voice.

“Did you think I was on the Crown Prince’s side?”

“...”

Elze didn't deny Shan's words. Shan exhaled roughly and ran his hand through his hair in response to the silent answer.

"Ha..."

But unlike his harsh gaze, his touch was affectionate. His tightly knotted hands slowly passed over Elze's cheek and brushed down the nape of her neck.

“I am on your side.”

Elze still didn't answer him. But she didn't push him away either. She quietly accepted his touch. Shan stroked Elze for a long time. He touched her as if to confirm whether what was in front of him and in his hands really existed. After a long time, Shan opened his mouth.

“Then now.”

His hand went down to Elze's waist. He rubbed the sunken area and squeezed it tightly. He squeezed it so hard that a slight pain was felt and asked cautiously.

“Now... do you believe? That I am on your side?”

Elze blinked. The moment she saw his desperate eyes, Elze realized. She had already made up her mind a long time ago.

She wants to be by Shan's side.

It was a feeling that had been ignored, making excuses all along. But now it had risen so clearly that it could not be denied. Elze decided to accept it. She took a slow breath and slowly opened her mouth to answer him.

“...I will believe you.”

Shan's eyes widened. Looking into her favorite pretty violet eyes, Elze promised.

“I trust you and I will be by your side.”

At that moment, their lips met. The kiss that came rushing in was full of intense emotions. Elze did not fight against the torrent of emotions that was coming. She just gave in and was swept away. She was trapped in it, mixed up and shaken. After licking and biting for a long time, Shan opened his mouth again.

“...Why.”

He had a mysterious expression of sorrow and joy. Shan muttered as he held Elze tightly in his arms and then released her several times.

“Even though I’m holding you in my arms like this, it feels like you’re going to disappear.”

He whispered, hugging her a little tighter.

“Give me confidence.”

Then he lifted Elze up and placed her on the bed. He held Elze, who was buried in the soft sheets, between his arms. Their faces were pressed against each other with the dark shadows. In the hot breath that brushed against his skin, Shan said.

“...I am confident that you will not run away.”

The word confidence had a clear sexual connotation. The purple eyes gleaming right in front of her nose were hypnotic. Shan, with his burning eyes and longing, was frighteningly seductive. Elze had to work hard not to be sucked into him.

“Confidence...”

Elze opened her mouth with difficulty, but her words trailed off without strength.

Shan looked down at Elze quietly. Her body tingled at the gaze that was fixed straight down. He was waiting for permission. And Elze already knew what conclusion would be reached.

He quietly reached out and pulled Shan's nape. Shan closed his eyes for a moment at Elze's touch. He closed them as if he felt the skin touching her, and then suddenly opened his eyes again. And he began to move impatiently.

Her clothes were taken off, and his hands touched her bare skin. The hand that was groping her felt so hot that it felt like it would burn her. Elze shrank slightly to avoid the heat even a little.

Shan narrowed his eyes at Elze. He must have thought of something else when he saw her flinching from the heat. He spoke in a low, cracking voice.

“If you want to run away, now is your last chance.”

But even though he spoke with a cool expression, his eyes were dripping with heat. Shan grabbed a handful of the ivory hair that was scattered all over the bed sheets. He whispered as he kissed the hair that was scattered between his fingers.

“I don’t plan on letting you go from now on.”

It was a dangerous warning full of sincerity. At the end of the words, invisible chains stretched out, shackling her hands and feet. It seemed as if she could hear the rattling sound of chains.

Instead of answering, Elze reached out and stroked his face. She felt his smooth cheek and his firm jawline under her palm. Shan slowly closed and opened his eyes, following Elze's touch. The purple eyes that disappeared and appeared between his eyelids were breathtakingly beautiful no matter when she saw them.

Suddenly, Elze remembered the moment when she first saved him. Even then, she thought his eyes were very pretty. Of course, she had never imagined that Shan and she would become like this. She thought that at best, they would only meet as old comrades.

To be honest, Elze thought she would never see him again. She had hidden her identity and gender and had gone into battle, so it was best for Elze not to meet him.

But the tangled web of fate was complicated and ultimately led Elze to this moment. And now, Elze has decided to stay by Shan's side.

“Why am I running away?”

Elze caressed his face and whispered.

“You owe me your life.”

Those were words that instantly blew away Shan's long-starved sense of reason. Shan's face froze for a moment, then suddenly distorted.

“Really...”

He couldn't stand it any longer. He buried his lips on Elze's nape and bit it roughly enough to leave a bite mark. He bit and licked it persistently as if he was trying to leave his mark.

As he showered her with kisses on her neck and face, Shan groped Elze's body. His copper hands rested on her white skin and slid down. Shan’s eyes, scanning every inch of Elze, caught sight of the thin bandage wrapped around her thigh. A faint red wound was visible beneath the bandage. It was the wound she had sustained while fighting the knights of Heglatan.

Fortunately, the wound was not deep enough to be a cause for concern. However, Shan stopped kissing and couldn’t take his eyes off the wound for a long time. His fingers hesitantly circled the wound. A soft voice came out.

“...Are you not hurt?”

He was the one who had vomited blood and collapsed, and Shan was worried that her leg was broken because she had just a superficial wound.

It was absurd. But it felt pretty good that he was treating her like a flower that would fly away when the wind blew, even though she wouldn't budge even if a typhoon blew. Elze tapped his shoulder with her finger.

“You are the patient.”

Shan raised his eyebrows at Elze's words. He soon snickered and asked back.

"Patient?"

Then he grabbed Elze's hand and pulled her towards him. He placed Elze's hand on his tightly muscled thigh and rubbed it, speaking.

“I have to show you how sane I am.”

She could feel the firm texture under her palm. Elze made a squeaking sound and closed her hands. Shan laughed out loud at the sight and caressed Elze's body.

But he had to stop soon because Elze grabbed his hand. Elze had something to remind him of.

“You know what? I decided to only have sex when I wanted to.”

Shan paused for a moment at the unexpected ambush. However, Elze still did not know how cunning he was. Shan smiled mischievously and swept Elze's leg with his other hand but was not caught. The hand that went inside her thigh gently rubbed her delicate flesh. A whisper came along with a strange yet pleasant sensation.

“I will try my best to make you feel that way.”

How could she dislike the sight of him trying his best to seduce her? Elze just laughed. Shan’s lips came down to Elze's eyes, who were giggling slightly. Elze felt his lips tickling and answered.

"Great."

Shan's eyes widened as he got the answer he wanted. He bit his earlobe, licked it slowly, and whispered.

“I promise it will be much better than the first night.”

His boasting seemed cute. It would be truly terrifying to others to think that this ferocious beast was cute.

But if Shan was a beast, Elze was his leash and master. Shan was so ferocious that no one could control him, but he was obedient under Elze's hand. Shan pretended to be gentle and smiled as he whispered.

“Then, shall we start with a kiss?”

Elze pretended not to notice and followed his rhythm. Shan leaned heavily on top of Elze and kissed her. Her body dug deep into the soft bedding. Contrary to his leisurely words, Shan’s kiss was not leisurely.

His tongue swept and scoured her mouth. It licked her flat molars and teased her sharp canines, making her teeth tingle. He rubbed his tongue against her palate, then slowly rubbed it. The back-and-forth movement of his tongue brought up strange fantasies.

Elze's breathing became a little faster as the sensation slowly rose from the tips of her feet. It was hard to breathe, so she pushed him away slightly and separated her lips. Her chest rose and fell with her rapid breathing. A small gasp escaped from her mouth.

"Ha..."

And Shan, who was watching Elze like that, felt like his patience was being tested endlessly. It was the first time that their relationship, which had been going back and forth, had come into contact. The person he had desperately wanted was right in front of him.

In fact, from the moment he found out that Erzenes was Elze, he was already half-mad as if his head was going to go crazy. But Shan barely managed to hold onto his senses and pretended like nothing was wrong, but Elze ended up lighting the fire.

The plump lips that said they would accept him, the blue eyes shining under her slightly trembling eyelashes, were dangerously alluring.

The passion that was surging inside him was so great that even Shan himself was scared. However, he couldn't show the emotions he was feeling right now. If he did, Elze, whom he had barely caught, would run away far away.

Shan licked along Elze's collarbone and gently caressed her breasts. He stroked her nipples with his fingertips and lowered his mouth. He pushed his tongue into her navel to tease her, and when he lowered his mouth a little further, he felt Elze flinch in surprise.

“Huh, where are you now...”

Shan gently spread her shrinking thighs apart and brought his mouth deeper inside. He placed his tongue on the bulge. Elze screamed Shan’s name.

“Shan!”

A white hand shoved his shoulder. Shan slightly raised his head and met her eyes. Elze's face turned bright red and she couldn’t say anything, just biting her lips.

It was an expression she had never shown before. Greed flared up like wildfire. She wanted to see a slightly different face. His throat felt like it was burning as he imagined her collapsing dizzily. Shan slowly licked her lips with his tongue. And he bit her lips slyly to hide his thirst.

“What’s the problem?”

Elze was astonished at the question, even though she knew everything, and her neck turned red. Shan left a bite mark on Elze's thigh, then buried his mouth in the gap again. It was cute how that place was stiff and rising as she started to get excited. He bit and licked the convex part, and deeply inserted his tongue into the concave part.

At first, Elze was unfamiliar and awkward and didn't know what to do, but little by little, she fell into the pleasure that was being given. The hand that was holding Shan's hair began to tremble slightly. Elze moaned in a wet voice.

“Ugh, this is a bit weird, uhm...”

It was Elze who described the pleasure as strange. Shan didn't bother to correct her. Instead, he decided to teach her properly what she was feeling right now.

He bit lightly enough to not hurt her then sucked hard. He grabbed her buttocks to prevent her from running away, and rubbed her hard with his tongue, causing Elze's head to fall back. The hand holding his hair tightened. Elze couldn't hold out for long.

“Ah, ahh... Haaah!”

A groan burst out along with the high-pumping waist. A moist liquid seeped out from deep inside. As Shan licked the liquid that flowed out without leaving a trace, a sobbing sound was heard. Hearing a voice that sounded like a half-cry, he couldn't hold it in any longer. Shan frowned at the feeling of his lower abdomen becoming painful and unbuttoned his pants.

His penis was already fully erect, and the veins were already up. Elze, who was still soaking in the afterglow of pleasure, looked slightly disgusted at the sight. Shan rubbed his penis against the wet entrance and whispered her name.

“...Elze.”

Then Elze hesitated and carefully placed her hand in Shan’s. Shan interlocked her fingers with Elze's. Their fingers intertwined tightly, tightening each other. Then Shan slowly swallowed Elze.

“...!”

The moment he dug inside, Shan clenched his teeth. The sensation of hot, wet insides tightly wrapping around his genitals sent a tingling sensation up his spine. His mind felt like it was going black. Shan tried to come to his senses and repeated to himself.

Let's do it slowly and gently...

The desire to go wild was raging like crazy, but Shan barely managed to hold it back. He saw Elze's hands clutching the sheets. He saw her gripping the sheets so tightly that her fingertips turned white, and she was trying hard to suppress her moans, making his vision dizzy.

Shan buried his insides deep inside Elze and showered her naked body with kisses. His hot breath spread over her body, and red flowers bloomed in his wake. As if marking his territory, he kept sucking and biting her for a while, and his head cleared up a little.

Shan looked at Elze with his eyes relaxed and relaxed. He locked eyes with her and slowly moved his body. Elze couldn't help but groan as her lips trembled. The sight of her tightly shutting her eyes and moaning couldn't have been more beautiful.

At least for this moment, Elze couldn't escape. She was completely Shan's.

A fierce sound burst out of his mouth along with a surge of possessiveness. The wet sound of his penis quickly digging in echoed all around. Tears welled up in Elze's wide-open eyes as she could not hold back her pleasure.

As Elze's chest was tormented and her insides were deeply stabbed, she finally reached a climax, shedding tears. As she struggled, Shan licked away the tears flowing down her eyes.

It was sweet and sweet. It was as if her entire body was made of something sweet. Shan whispered impulsively, biting Elze's sweaty hair.

“It’s sweet... It’s pretty and sweet...”

He just wants to swallow it all in one bite. The last words were muffled by the moans. Elze didn't seem to hear what Shan was saying properly. While she was struggling with sensations beyond her limits, Shan was also gradually reaching the end of pleasure.

Trying to restrain himself to the end, Shan tightly held Elze's hand. Along with the feeling of his lower abdomen hardening, a lightning-like pleasure flashed. Heat spread throughout his entire body. Elze panted and called Shan’s name.

“Shan...!”

Elze, Elze, Elze. Shan answered her call again and again. The heat that filled their entire bodies slowly melted the two of them. They melted little by little, and soon they mixed together, becoming completely one.

“Phew...”

After a long ejaculation, Shan slowly pulled out his penis. He wanted to do more, but Elze, who was exhausted, was already falling asleep. Shan placed a light kiss on Elze's forehead.

“Are you sleeping?”

Judging from the lack of response, she must have already fallen asleep. Shan sighed for a moment and buried his face in the nape of her neck. The warm and soft body he felt in her arms still didn’t feel real.

Erzenes, Elze is really next to him. He could feel her heart beating. As he listened to the regular beating, a soft sense of stability rose up. Hugging her slender body, Shan also slowly fell asleep. It was a more comfortable and deep sleep than ever before.


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