"I'm ready, miss. He'll be here soon. Have a nice time."
'What the hell did I say?!'
Perhaps the reason May was so embarrassed was not because of my own inelegant behavior.
I let out a short sigh and bit my lip.
'So when you said you were going to take a lavender bath, you meant to get ready to spend the night with a man?!'
It was an elegant expression befitting a noble young lady.
Expressing your desire to sleep with a man through pleasure.
'Fuck.'
It's so elegant.
I've heard that Western aristocrats actually played around promiscuously, but I never thought I'd experience it firsthand.
As a woman in South Korea, this was something I absolutely could not tolerate.
But.
I looked at the man who was staring at me indifferently.
If this had been a normal occurrence all along, it would have been strange to see me suddenly change my attitude. When I was at a loss, squeezing the poor sheet, the man let out a short breath and said,
“Wherever you are uncomfortable...”
'Me! I'm uncomfortable!'
I naturally turned her gaze, swallowing the words she couldn't bring myself to say.
“Ah, I’m suddenly a little tired...Should you go back now for today?”
“...”
Then the man looked at me intently as if trying to gauge my intentions.
'Was it strange that I suddenly told him to leave?'
At that moment, when my lips were almost dry from needless worry.
A man who got out of bed without a second thought picked up the clothes that were lying on the floor and put them on.
“If you change your mind, call me again.”
That's not possible.
I nodded my head slightly in agreement, and he gradually moved away from me politely.
Bang.
As the door closed and he disappeared from sight, I let out the breath I had been holding.
“Haa... This is driving me crazy.”
I thought I could just enjoy the life of a rich kid.
“Where on earth have you been...?”
At this point, I even had a reasonable suspicion that I might have been possessed by an adult novel.
It wasn't until much later that it occurred to her that the genre of fiction I possessed might be the genre of bloodshed.
The next morning.
I, who had been up all night with my eyes wide open, felt my face reflected in the mirror.
'In the end, I couldn't even sleep a wink.'
I sighed at the sight of my skin becoming rough and my eyes becoming dark overnight.
Then I looked at May, who was fixing my hair.
“May. That, that person who came to my room yesterday... that person...”
What should I call a man whose name I don't even know?
As I hesitated in vain, May answered.
“Carsis?”
“Yeah! Yes, Carsis!”
“Why Carsis? Were you dissatisfied with yesterday?”
'...What? Satisfied?'
“Aren’t you satisfied?”
'What the hell did I say?!'
Perhaps the reason May was so embarrassed was not because of my own inelegant behavior.
I let out a short sigh and bit my lip.
'So when you said you were going to take a lavender bath, you meant to get ready to spend the night with a man?!'
It was an elegant expression befitting a noble young lady.
Expressing your desire to sleep with a man through pleasure.
'Fuck.'
It's so elegant.
I've heard that Western aristocrats actually played around promiscuously, but I never thought I'd experience it firsthand.
As a woman in South Korea, this was something I absolutely could not tolerate.
But.
I looked at the man who was staring at me indifferently.
'What do you say and tell them to leave...?'
“Wherever you are uncomfortable...”
'Me! I'm uncomfortable!'
I naturally turned her gaze, swallowing the words she couldn't bring myself to say.
“Ah, I’m suddenly a little tired...Should you go back now for today?”
“...”
Then the man looked at me intently as if trying to gauge my intentions.
'Was it strange that I suddenly told him to leave?'
At that moment, when my lips were almost dry from needless worry.
A man who got out of bed without a second thought picked up the clothes that were lying on the floor and put them on.
“If you change your mind, call me again.”
That's not possible.
I nodded my head slightly in agreement, and he gradually moved away from me politely.
Bang.
As the door closed and he disappeared from sight, I let out the breath I had been holding.
“Haa... This is driving me crazy.”
I thought I could just enjoy the life of a rich kid.
“Where on earth have you been...?”
At this point, I even had a reasonable suspicion that I might have been possessed by an adult novel.
It wasn't until much later that it occurred to her that the genre of fiction I possessed might be the genre of bloodshed.
***
The next morning.
I, who had been up all night with my eyes wide open, felt my face reflected in the mirror.
'In the end, I couldn't even sleep a wink.'
I sighed at the sight of my skin becoming rough and my eyes becoming dark overnight.
Then I looked at May, who was fixing my hair.
“May. That, that person who came to my room yesterday... that person...”
What should I call a man whose name I don't even know?
As I hesitated in vain, May answered.
“Carsis?”
“Yeah! Yes, Carsis!”
“Why Carsis? Were you dissatisfied with yesterday?”
'...What? Satisfied?'
“Aren’t you satisfied?”
May asked, looking quite embarrassed as she blushed and looked embarrassed yesterday.
“No, that’s not it... Since when has Carsis been, umm, in my room...”
What on earth should I ask this?
Even as I asked the question, I kept coughing in vain as the heat surged up inside me.
“It’s been about two years since he took care of you.”
“2... years?”
Wow, it's been a long time.
Still, judging from the reactions, it didn't seem like the people coming into the bedroom changed very often.
'Then are you dating me?'
It was a pretty plausible assumption.
Because my face reflected in the mirror looked innocent as if I had never held a man's hand before.
Yeah, there's no way a noble lady would sleep with just anyone.
'But it was a bit stiff for something like that.'
It was a man who looked at me with dry eyes without saying a single word of affection.
His actions felt more like duty than dealing with a loving lover.
As I was reminiscing about last night and starting to question myself again, May's words made my body stop.
“It’s already been eleven years since you brought Carsis here, Miss.”
“Bring him?”
“Carsis. You brought him here when he was 14.”
“Me? Where?”
I asked with wide eyes.
Then May burst into laughter as if asking me why I was asking that.
“How would I know that? You know, young lady.”
“Ah. That, that’s right... Haha.”
Only then did I realize my mistake and mumbled my words with an embarrassed expression.
Fortunately, May didn't seem to notice anything strange and just casually combed my hair.
“When we first saw Carsis, he was so small and skinny that no one believed he was 12 years old. To anyone who saw him, he looked like he was only about 8 years old. But now he’s grown strong enough to be the young lady’s escort knight. It’s really amazing.”
“...Escort knight?”
'So to sum it up, are you saying that I had sex with the escort knight every night...?'
A young boy she picked up as a child becomes the heroine's bodyguard, and they fall in love.
I've seen a novel like that before.
The problem was that there were too many of them.
It was when I was swallowing my curses inside.
“But, Miss. There’s something I’ve always wondered about.”
I, who had a lot to think about because of the new facts, nodded roughly to May's question.
“Even so, Young Lady, how did you persuade His Excellency? I thought he would never allow someone of unknown status to be by your side. In fact, he was strongly opposed to it. But one day, he suddenly spoke to Young Lady alone and gave his permission, which surprised everyone.”
How would I know that?
“If you didn’t accept it, I would have said I would starve. No, I said I would starve.”
Since I was raised preciously, that level of threat would have been enough.
I recalled the first time I saw the Duke and Duchess.
The faces of the couple who loved their only daughter so dearly flashed before my eyes.
'Come to think of it, I wonder if the Duke and Duchess know that their daughter is playing with fire with the knight escort every night.'
"Ha..."
It's been four days since I've been here.
Feeling extremely tired, I first thought of going back.
As always, dinner time with the Duke and Duchess.
It was when I was just rummaging through the poor salad.
“Ellie.”
I, who was lost in thought, raised my head at the sound of the Duke's voice calling me.
Ellie.
The Duke, who had the same dazzling blond hair and grass-green eyes as mine, always called me by the nickname Ellie.
“Are you feeling sick? You can’t seem to eat properly.”
The Duke asked me with concern, seeing that I was not even putting food in my mouth.
I stared blankly at the Duke's face for a moment, then let out a short breath.
'Yes, the Duke and Duchess can date before marriage.'
I'm not a married woman, nor do I have a lover.
I felt a sense of relief when I realized that maybe I was taking the situation too seriously.
'I'll call KlCarsis later and talk to him.'
If I talk to him a few times when we are alone, I will be able to figure out what kind of relationship I have with him.
I smiled as I thought about that and opened my mouth.
“No, I just have a little appetite...”
“The wedding is coming up soon, so it’s a time when you’ll be thinking a lot.”
“Yes, that’s right. The wedding... Yes?”
“No, that’s not it... Since when has Carsis been, umm, in my room...”
What on earth should I ask this?
Even as I asked the question, I kept coughing in vain as the heat surged up inside me.
“It’s been about two years since he took care of you.”
“2... years?”
Wow, it's been a long time.
Still, judging from the reactions, it didn't seem like the people coming into the bedroom changed very often.
'Then are you dating me?'
It was a pretty plausible assumption.
Because my face reflected in the mirror looked innocent as if I had never held a man's hand before.
Yeah, there's no way a noble lady would sleep with just anyone.
'But it was a bit stiff for something like that.'
It was a man who looked at me with dry eyes without saying a single word of affection.
His actions felt more like duty than dealing with a loving lover.
As I was reminiscing about last night and starting to question myself again, May's words made my body stop.
“It’s already been eleven years since you brought Carsis here, Miss.”
“Bring him?”
“Carsis. You brought him here when he was 14.”
“Me? Where?”
I asked with wide eyes.
Then May burst into laughter as if asking me why I was asking that.
“How would I know that? You know, young lady.”
“Ah. That, that’s right... Haha.”
Only then did I realize my mistake and mumbled my words with an embarrassed expression.
Fortunately, May didn't seem to notice anything strange and just casually combed my hair.
“When we first saw Carsis, he was so small and skinny that no one believed he was 12 years old. To anyone who saw him, he looked like he was only about 8 years old. But now he’s grown strong enough to be the young lady’s escort knight. It’s really amazing.”
“...Escort knight?”
'So to sum it up, are you saying that I had sex with the escort knight every night...?'
A young boy she picked up as a child becomes the heroine's bodyguard, and they fall in love.
I've seen a novel like that before.
The problem was that there were too many of them.
It was when I was swallowing my curses inside.
“But, Miss. There’s something I’ve always wondered about.”
I, who had a lot to think about because of the new facts, nodded roughly to May's question.
“Even so, Young Lady, how did you persuade His Excellency? I thought he would never allow someone of unknown status to be by your side. In fact, he was strongly opposed to it. But one day, he suddenly spoke to Young Lady alone and gave his permission, which surprised everyone.”
How would I know that?
“If you didn’t accept it, I would have said I would starve. No, I said I would starve.”
Since I was raised preciously, that level of threat would have been enough.
I recalled the first time I saw the Duke and Duchess.
The faces of the couple who loved their only daughter so dearly flashed before my eyes.
'Come to think of it, I wonder if the Duke and Duchess know that their daughter is playing with fire with the knight escort every night.'
"Ha..."
It's been four days since I've been here.
Feeling extremely tired, I first thought of going back.
***
As always, dinner time with the Duke and Duchess.
It was when I was just rummaging through the poor salad.
“Ellie.”
I, who was lost in thought, raised my head at the sound of the Duke's voice calling me.
Ellie.
The Duke, who had the same dazzling blond hair and grass-green eyes as mine, always called me by the nickname Ellie.
“Are you feeling sick? You can’t seem to eat properly.”
The Duke asked me with concern, seeing that I was not even putting food in my mouth.
I stared blankly at the Duke's face for a moment, then let out a short breath.
'Yes, the Duke and Duchess can date before marriage.'
I'm not a married woman, nor do I have a lover.
I felt a sense of relief when I realized that maybe I was taking the situation too seriously.
'I'll call KlCarsis later and talk to him.'
If I talk to him a few times when we are alone, I will be able to figure out what kind of relationship I have with him.
I smiled as I thought about that and opened my mouth.
“No, I just have a little appetite...”
“The wedding is coming up soon, so it’s a time when you’ll be thinking a lot.”
“Yes, that’s right. The wedding... Yes?”
I stared blankly at the face of the Duchess who was reciting in a soft voice.
'Wedding? Whose?'
The Duchess continued speaking, misunderstanding my gaze as if it was asking for an explanation.
“Before marriage, you’ll probably be excited and scared at the same time. This mother knows it all.”
'No, so whose wedding is it?'
The Duke nodded as if he deeply sympathized with the unknown Duchess's words.
“But, don’t forget this one thing. The Duke of Cretian will always be behind you, wherever you are. Although after moving to the palace, we won’t be able to sit down and eat like this often...”
'Palace?'
I almost dropped the fork I was holding.
“His Highness the Crown Prince also told us to come to the palace often, so we will go.”
'Crown Prince?'
As I put the scattered puzzle pieces together one by one, the picture was completed.
A reality that we want to deny because it is not reality.
“...I, mother. So, what you’re saying is that the person who is getting married now...”
I tried to act calm and subtly asked the Duchess.
I hope this isn't true.
“His Highness the Crown Prince.”
Of course, that earnestness was shattered mercilessly.
Oh, I'm done.
'Wedding? Whose?'
The Duchess continued speaking, misunderstanding my gaze as if it was asking for an explanation.
“Before marriage, you’ll probably be excited and scared at the same time. This mother knows it all.”
'No, so whose wedding is it?'
The Duke nodded as if he deeply sympathized with the unknown Duchess's words.
“But, don’t forget this one thing. The Duke of Cretian will always be behind you, wherever you are. Although after moving to the palace, we won’t be able to sit down and eat like this often...”
'Palace?'
I almost dropped the fork I was holding.
“His Highness the Crown Prince also told us to come to the palace often, so we will go.”
'Crown Prince?'
As I put the scattered puzzle pieces together one by one, the picture was completed.
A reality that we want to deny because it is not reality.
“...I, mother. So, what you’re saying is that the person who is getting married now...”
I tried to act calm and subtly asked the Duchess.
I hope this isn't true.
“His Highness the Crown Prince.”
Of course, that earnestness was shattered mercilessly.
Oh, I'm done.
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