I narrowed my eyes when I heard that.
“That’s...!”
Wasn’t he talking as if I had chosen one of the three to satisfy my material or other desires?
That wasn’t it. I swear, I just wanted to live.
I was about to get angry.
“I’m glad that I wasn’t a bad choice.”
Belled said nonchalantly. Then, when our eyes met, he tilted his head as if he was puzzled.
“What’s wrong with choosing your own path... Ah.”
He narrowed his eyes.
“Do they teach you that you shouldn’t show such desires in the temple...?”
“...”
I looked at him and slowly nodded.
Even though I wanted to leave the temple, no matter how much I detested the priests there, what was stuck in my head was the things they had taught and brainwashed me for half my life, and it was horrible. It was so horrible that I wanted to scratch my head out if possible.
“It may have been so in the temple, but not in Vine.”
He kissed the tip of my nose. When I flinched at the warmth that came, his words gently soothed me.
“Vine does not teach you to suppress your desires. You need to have something to develop, don’t you? Since you also bear the name of Vine, forget about the temple.”
“But.”
“You came as a Saintess, so you’re saying no?”
That was... no. When I failed to answer, Belled’s smile deepened.
“Now you are Beryl von Vine. And didn’t you say that to me? You want to learn how to desire.”
The lips that had been tickling my nose moved to my upper lip. He let out a low laugh as he penetrated my slightly parted mouth.
“You can learn as much as you want. But what bothers me is that those people and I....”
In your heart.
His fingertips gently ran up my arm and touched my collarbone.
Just before touching a sensitive spot that could be considered an invasion, a place where a strange feeling bloomed.
“It’s so disturbing that you don’t see much of a difference that you have to measure it.”
Whew.
I thought that the lights in the room seemed to dim for a moment.
Magic... The pressure that felt like it was pressing down on my whole body was definitely magic.
I could tell because I was a Saintess.
“I like thinking about the future and making choices, but I don’t think impulsiveness is wrong either.
Just before touching a sensitive spot that could be considered an invasion, a place where a strange feeling bloomed.
“It’s so disturbing that you don’t see much of a difference that you have to measure it.”
Whew.
I thought that the lights in the room seemed to dim for a moment.
Magic... The pressure that felt like it was pressing down on my whole body was definitely magic.
I could tell because I was a Saintess.
“I like thinking about the future and making choices, but I don’t think impulsiveness is wrong either.
what do you think?”
He slowly leaned in. When our heated gazes briefly withdrew, almost as if our eyes were locked for the rest of our lives, a sizzling heat touched the spot where his hand had touched.
“...!”
Belled repeated to me, who let out a short breath.
“Impulse sometimes teaches me what I want. Especially for those whose desires have been suppressed, there is nothing better than impulsiveness to stimulate them.”
Something seemed to remain like a burn where the thick heat had disappeared. His fingers gently brushed my lower lip.
“Especially for those who have been suppressed like you, Beryl.”
“I...”
It was true that I had been oppressed in the temple. They had taught me not to desire anything.
“Who said that a Saintess has no desires? The God who chose you as a Saintess? Or the God they created?”
He said scornfully.
“Everyone who wants a future has desires. Telling you not to desire is the same as telling you not to think about the future. In other words.”
It’s like telling me to be used and then discarded when I become worthless.
Those words seemed to be engraved in my mind.
It was exactly what I had felt. The priests acted as if they didn’t think I had a future. A consumable or a tool. That was the true position of the Saintess in their minds.
“You must have desires too. You just forgot how to desire, as you said.”
His hand supported my neck. Our bodies became entangled as our bodies got closer.
His knees caught the soft, flowing fabric.
He slowly leaned in. When our heated gazes briefly withdrew, almost as if our eyes were locked for the rest of our lives, a sizzling heat touched the spot where his hand had touched.
“...!”
Belled repeated to me, who let out a short breath.
“Impulse sometimes teaches me what I want. Especially for those whose desires have been suppressed, there is nothing better than impulsiveness to stimulate them.”
Something seemed to remain like a burn where the thick heat had disappeared. His fingers gently brushed my lower lip.
“Especially for those who have been suppressed like you, Beryl.”
“I...”
It was true that I had been oppressed in the temple. They had taught me not to desire anything.
“Who said that a Saintess has no desires? The God who chose you as a Saintess? Or the God they created?”
He said scornfully.
“Everyone who wants a future has desires. Telling you not to desire is the same as telling you not to think about the future. In other words.”
It’s like telling me to be used and then discarded when I become worthless.
Those words seemed to be engraved in my mind.
It was exactly what I had felt. The priests acted as if they didn’t think I had a future. A consumable or a tool. That was the true position of the Saintess in their minds.
“You must have desires too. You just forgot how to desire, as you said.”
His hand supported my neck. Our bodies became entangled as our bodies got closer.
His knees caught the soft, flowing fabric.
Swish.
What came closer than the sound of the fabric sliding was the heat.
A damp heat that I couldn’t tell was coming from me or from him.
“The priests probably didn’t want to understand.”
At those words, I nodded without realizing it.
Belled was the first person to acknowledge my desire. I couldn’t refuse him, who spoke as if he knew everything.
With a low laugh, his body dug into me a little more. The moist heat moved through my skin as if it were trapped in his lap.
“Huh.”
As he dug deeper, I unconsciously grabbed the cloth because of the ticklish sensation I felt for the first time in my life.
My slightly raised legs were tied up and couldn’t move because of the cloth that was pressed against my body.
He smiled brightly and lifted my body slightly.
Haa, I let out a short breath without realizing it and realized how hot I had been. I only realized that the place I was lying in was hot because I had been lifted up.
And before I could realize it, my body was lifted onto the softly supported pillow.
Saa.
The feeling of the hem of my dress rising and falling was vivid.
“No matter how influential the temple is in the empire, I hate temples.”
Belled, who had been looking at the same place, said.
“They don’t let humans live like humans.”
His hot hand touched my knee where my dress was lifted up. The hand that had been wrapping around my round knee came up to touch the back of my knee.
“Just like you, who doesn’t know what to do with your burning body, I’ll make you into someone who is dull to desire and can’t find joy in life.”
The corners of his mouth went up sharply.
“These priests are just lumps of desire.”
Even those words seemed to read my mind, so I let out the breath I had been holding back.
It was a sigh of liberation. The man who was gradually heating up my body seemed to be whispering something else.
I’m on your side.
I thought he knew what seduction was. I also knew that it was a whisper that could be called the devil’s way.
But if these words were even a little sincere. If there was a chance to be understood in this way. If there was this sense of liberation... I felt like I could give in to the temptation.
I thought I would gain greater relief and liberation no matter what he gave.
So I nodded without realizing it. Belled’s smile deepened.
“Desire isn’t wrong. Right?”
He hugged me. It was strangely warm to be held by his firm chest... It was strangely warm.
Not just my burning body, but my heart. Clearly, I should have been on guard, but it was like the ice wall I had been building was melting.
“So try to act impulsively today, Beryl.”
He whispered. Heat. The intense heat was beyond the melting wall.
“No, just close your eyes.”
A damp heat that I couldn’t tell was coming from me or from him.
“The priests probably didn’t want to understand.”
At those words, I nodded without realizing it.
Belled was the first person to acknowledge my desire. I couldn’t refuse him, who spoke as if he knew everything.
With a low laugh, his body dug into me a little more. The moist heat moved through my skin as if it were trapped in his lap.
“Huh.”
As he dug deeper, I unconsciously grabbed the cloth because of the ticklish sensation I felt for the first time in my life.
My slightly raised legs were tied up and couldn’t move because of the cloth that was pressed against my body.
He smiled brightly and lifted my body slightly.
Haa, I let out a short breath without realizing it and realized how hot I had been. I only realized that the place I was lying in was hot because I had been lifted up.
And before I could realize it, my body was lifted onto the softly supported pillow.
Saa.
The feeling of the hem of my dress rising and falling was vivid.
“No matter how influential the temple is in the empire, I hate temples.”
Belled, who had been looking at the same place, said.
“They don’t let humans live like humans.”
His hot hand touched my knee where my dress was lifted up. The hand that had been wrapping around my round knee came up to touch the back of my knee.
“Just like you, who doesn’t know what to do with your burning body, I’ll make you into someone who is dull to desire and can’t find joy in life.”
The corners of his mouth went up sharply.
“These priests are just lumps of desire.”
Even those words seemed to read my mind, so I let out the breath I had been holding back.
It was a sigh of liberation. The man who was gradually heating up my body seemed to be whispering something else.
I’m on your side.
I thought he knew what seduction was. I also knew that it was a whisper that could be called the devil’s way.
But if these words were even a little sincere. If there was a chance to be understood in this way. If there was this sense of liberation... I felt like I could give in to the temptation.
I thought I would gain greater relief and liberation no matter what he gave.
So I nodded without realizing it. Belled’s smile deepened.
“Desire isn’t wrong. Right?”
He hugged me. It was strangely warm to be held by his firm chest... It was strangely warm.
Not just my burning body, but my heart. Clearly, I should have been on guard, but it was like the ice wall I had been building was melting.
“So try to act impulsively today, Beryl.”
He whispered. Heat. The intense heat was beyond the melting wall.
“No, just close your eyes.”
I turn away. All those things that unknowingly bind me.
When my eyes met his green eyes for the last time, I felt it.
That tonight, many things in my life would change.
Fear and excitement fought each other. If I thought a little more rationally, I might refuse.
This is a gamble.
Falling for the devil’s whispers is no different from gambling.
But it was just as he said. It wouldn’t be bad to act impulsively.
That’s why I closed my eyes. The lights went out with a low laugh.
I was glad that the lights had gone out. It was a place where it was so dark that I couldn’t tell if my eyes were open or closed.
That’s why it was better. Because no one would see me.
The feeling of being hot, the feeling of being embarrassed in a place where there were only two of them, the fear of someone seeing, the feeling of doing this even though I knew no one would see... I felt nervous because it felt like someone was watching me.
He kissed my arm which was almost tense. Since I couldn’t see anything, my sense of touch seemed to be on edge.
Nevertheless, rather than fear, a strange excitement consumed me. I couldn’t figure out what this strange feeling wrapping around my lower abdomen was.
“God teaches. There are eyes everywhere, so be careful of your movements... right?”
A voice came from the darkness. I nodded.
“...That’s right.”
That was the teaching of the temple. And it was true in the temple. Eyes were watching the Saintess wherever I went.
Because of that, I couldn’t desire anything, and I became a body that couldn’t even desire the outside air. Until I got married and breathed the air of the secular world.
“It’s a lie.”
Belled answered without hesitation. It was a seductive whisper.
But I couldn’t respond.
You have to insist that you're not a devil. But if you keep saying that...
“There are places where there are no eyes to see. There are places where it’s just the two of us.”
Like here, for example. He laughed.
“From places like this, it starts to...”
His fingertips lifted the hem of my dress that had trapped my heat. The soft hem touched my lower abdomen and my lips.
When a part of the fabric dug into the inside of my slightly parted lips.
"...!”
The heat invaded places that no one thought could penetrate.
When my eyes met his green eyes for the last time, I felt it.
That tonight, many things in my life would change.
Fear and excitement fought each other. If I thought a little more rationally, I might refuse.
This is a gamble.
Falling for the devil’s whispers is no different from gambling.
But it was just as he said. It wouldn’t be bad to act impulsively.
That’s why I closed my eyes. The lights went out with a low laugh.
I was glad that the lights had gone out. It was a place where it was so dark that I couldn’t tell if my eyes were open or closed.
That’s why it was better. Because no one would see me.
The feeling of being hot, the feeling of being embarrassed in a place where there were only two of them, the fear of someone seeing, the feeling of doing this even though I knew no one would see... I felt nervous because it felt like someone was watching me.
He kissed my arm which was almost tense. Since I couldn’t see anything, my sense of touch seemed to be on edge.
Nevertheless, rather than fear, a strange excitement consumed me. I couldn’t figure out what this strange feeling wrapping around my lower abdomen was.
“God teaches. There are eyes everywhere, so be careful of your movements... right?”
A voice came from the darkness. I nodded.
“...That’s right.”
That was the teaching of the temple. And it was true in the temple. Eyes were watching the Saintess wherever I went.
Because of that, I couldn’t desire anything, and I became a body that couldn’t even desire the outside air. Until I got married and breathed the air of the secular world.
“It’s a lie.”
Belled answered without hesitation. It was a seductive whisper.
But I couldn’t respond.
You have to insist that you're not a devil. But if you keep saying that...
“There are places where there are no eyes to see. There are places where it’s just the two of us.”
Like here, for example. He laughed.
“From places like this, it starts to...”
His fingertips lifted the hem of my dress that had trapped my heat. The soft hem touched my lower abdomen and my lips.
When a part of the fabric dug into the inside of my slightly parted lips.
"...!”
The heat invaded places that no one thought could penetrate.
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