IDEFYEM - Chapter 95 [ Part 1 Complete ]
Black Man, I'll Do Everything For You Except Marriage!
Raphael, why did you do that?
Why did you give up your heart for the woman you first met on your wedding day?
Someday, when this is all over...
Will there ever come a day when I can hear the reason directly from your own mouth?
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After coming out of the library, I ran frantically and headed to the main building of the Grand Duke's residence.
The rain that was still falling drenched my entire body.
In the bone-chilling cold of dawn, I thought of Raphael again.
He must have suffered and felt even more pain every time it rained.
Even if you can't remember it in your head, it is engraved deep in your soul. Did my death mean that much to you?
So every time, it hurts so much...
Has he been enduring this empty space in my heart for no reason since he was born?
Raphael.
Every time I think of his name, my heart beats faster, as if it was falling.
I couldn't forget the image of the man kneeling in front of the large magic circle.
Thud.
I blindly opened the bedroom door and ran to the bed where he was lying.
Although he still hadn't regained consciousness, I still wanted to check his face.
I was out of breath from running all the way here but gradually calmed down.
Then I slowly approached Raphael and listened.
'He's breathing. I hear a sound."
I thought that was enough for now.
Now all I wanted from Raphael was to be alive. So that I can slowly repay the debt that I will never be able to repay in my lifetime.
Thump, thud...
A few drops of water ran down from my rain-soaked clothes and soaked the floor.
I carefully raised my arm and stroked Raphael's black hair.
Just looking at it made me feel like my heart was going to break.
"You wished me happiness then."
I muttered quietly.
I could have asked to save my life or to turn back time.
It was still good to see him only wishing for my happiness among many options.
"I am now...."
When I opened my mouth, a trembling voice came out without me realizing it.
"I'm so happy now, Raphael."
Memories from before I turned back time came all at once, making me feel dizzy.
However, I could clearly remember the memories of those painful d lays and the feeling that living was not living.
It was a life where even the basic needs of appetite and sleep could not be properly satisfied.
During meal times, I often pretended to be suspicious of the Duke, and at night I had trouble sleeping due to memories of abuse and verbal abuse.
But now.
It was different now. There are people around me.
Friends like Sarah and Sophia, and even a lover who would give up his heart for me.
Every morning, I looked forward to mealtime at the Grand Duke's dining room.
It was fun to fall asleep in a cozy bed, recalling good memories of the day.
If it weren't for him, I would never have known that such feelings existed in the world.
I remembered my last conversation with Raphael before he fell asleep.
What did I say then?
"Raphael. I hate you so much."
The words I had spit out like a complaint now came back and stabbed me in the heart like a dagger.
I wanted to tell you that I don't hate you. I wanted to confess again that I love you with a clearer spirit than ever before.
Seeing Raphael sleeping as if he would never wake up reminded me of a joke he once told me.
The day I first arrived at the Grand Duke's residence, which I knew as the Count's residence at the time.
"I need your kiss to lift the curse, Enri."
"Well, that's a lie, right?"
"Yes."
Even when I thought about it again, I couldn't help but laugh at the ridiculous joke.
At the same time, tears welled up.
Now, I desperately hope that it is true.
I hope it's a curse that can be broken with just one kiss. Or rather...
I wish his eyes would open right away like in a fairy tale.
The moonlight fell on Raphael's bloodless face, making him look even paler.
But his lips were always red enough to look good.
I approached the bed as if possessed by something.
I knelt on the floor with my elbows on the bed and looked at him.
I want to see his eyes as deep and blue as the sea again.
At the end of a trembling breath, Raphael's warm lips touched. Our first kiss was so secret and one-sided.
He smelled like a cold winter, just like I always imagined.
I closed my eyes as if swimming in the endless cold. I couldn't bear to hug or hold hands, so I locked our lips together for a few seconds.
It was innocent and clumsy as if it was just an act to share warmth. I immediately opened my mouth has if to run away. For some reason, tears were flowing.
"I love you..."
I lowered my head. I hoped that when I looked up again, he would miraculously open his eyes, but that wasn't going to happen.
There was hellish silence for a long time.
It was that moment. Suddenly a cool hand came up and wrapped around the back of my neck.
I was startled and my vision expanded to reveal blue eyes shining in the dark.
"Raph, shit."
Before I could finish saying his name, our lips overlapped again.
Raphael grabbed my hand, which was fluttering in the air, and pressed it onto the bed sheet.
A deep kiss began without even a word to speak. It was a completely different experience from the time I secretly kissed him earlier.
I felt a hot and tingling sensation inside my chest. Kissing me, Raphael gradually raised his upper body.
He immediately put his arm between my forearms, lifted me up from where I was sitting on the floor, and placed me on the bed.
"W-what. Ugh. ugh."
And without giving me time to protest, I kissed him again.
As if he noticed that my body was losing its balance and falling over. Raphael wrapped his large hands around my waist.
When a cold touch touched my heated body, my reaction became more sensitive. I heard the sound of Iegs rubbing on the bed. It was as if wine had been brought to someone who had been starving for a long time. It was rough yet delicate, and...
It felt strangely good.
“Ha.”
As soon as our lips separated, I let out the breath I had been holding. Raphael still had a sad look in his eyes.
I didn't know what to say in this situation, so I was choosing the first thing to say, and it was he who struck first.
"Is that true?"
"W-what is it?"
"Do you really love me?"
It was a voice that pressed down each word as if it wanted to get a definite answer right away.
My face heated up. I stuttered and gave out answers that were not answers.
"Wow, since when have you been awake? I thought I might never see you again...."
"So you confessed and kissed? Because I lost consciousness?"
Actually, there was another reason, but I couldn't tell him that now.
Raphael smiled slyly when I kept my mouth shut and didn't open it.
"Then I'm really glad. I think it's the best thing I've done in my life."
"Are you really crazy?"
It was so absurd that I reflexively raised my hand and slapped him.
Even as he was being hit on the back by me, he couldn't hide the serious expression on his lips.
It felt like it had been a very long time since I had been worried about Raphael just now.
"As soon as I heard your voice, I felt my heart pounding."
"..."
"Thanks to you. I opened my eyes. Enri, you are always magical."
When I suddenly opened my eyes and saw him moving, I was confused as to how to deal with him. My heart kept beating.
I was confused about where to put my hands. Because of that, I unconsciously placed my hand on my thigh and moaned softly.
The scars left behind by the flames of black magic grazing my skin were extremely painful.
"What's wrong?"
Raphael was not the type to just ignore it. He didn't pull up the hem of my skirt because it was a sensitive area, but he also carefully placed his hand on the spot where my hand had touched.
It didn't look like there would be any scars, but the skin was red, swollen, and hot.
"What happened?"
Raphael asked with eyes full of worry.
Immediately after that, he jumped up without any hesitation.
"Call the doctor right away..."
As Raphael was about to leave, I urgently grabbed the hem of his clothes and stopped him.
"It's not like that. It's okay."
“But, Enri.”
"It's an injury I received while practicing magic. It will get better soon."
Even after saying that, Raphael's frown showed no sign of straightening. In the end, I said it playfully, like a joke.
"After all, it's my thighs, so it wouldn't be nice to see any scars...."
"That doesn't matter."
Raphael immediately cut off his words as if asking what I meant.
Raphael's expression sank with worry. He pressed his lips to hers, unable to take his eyes off her, as if he was constantly on edge.
When I saw that. I started crying again.
Even though I didn't want to, I couldn't help but cry whenever I saw Rafael caring for me.
"As expected, a doctor right now..._
As if he misunderstood my reddened eyes as pain, I hugged him as he tried to stand up.
Even though we had kissed earlier, I was not used to hugs, so I felt Raphael's spine stiffen.
"..."
After a long silence, I spoke in a damp voice.
"Can't you just stay by my side?"
I heard the sound of Raphael's neck moving.
He knelt on the floor like I did earlier.
Our eyes met. Soon his lips landed on my wet cheek.
His hand touched my thigh. Although it was slightly sore, Raphael's abnormally low body temperature felt cool because it was a burned area.
The atmosphere was filled with strange tension.
We were both interpreting that heavy air in the same direction.
"... Until morning?"
The pronunciation was muffled and sounded low as it touched the skin.
He asked as if asking for permission before kissing his way under my lips to the nape of my neck.
Instead of answering, I wrapped my arms around his strong shoulders. The hesitation was short.
Raphael let out a sigh like a sigh. Our lips met again.
As my body fell backward, unable to withstand the passionate kiss, Raphael got up from the floor and came up on top of me.
I saw the shadow on the ceiling moving. It looked like a big wolf was charging at me.
It was a long night that seemed like it would never end.
[ Part 1 completed ]
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