SPMB - Chapter 191

SPMB - Chapter 191

My Body Has Been Possessed By Someone

The Queen came in, closing the dооr.

"Both of you are out of your mind"

Quiet anger stirs over the Queen's face.

"Alexei, thanks to you, the engagement party ends like this."

"Yes? But the wedding ceremonу..."

"It has been decided that the wedding ceremony will be held privately tomorrow at the main chapel."

Alexei frowned at those words and asked.

"Are you saying this will be done in private? Why?"

"Why would I do that?"

Anger burned in the Queen's eyes.

"Thanks to you causing such a fuss, the dignity of the Frederick family has fallen. If we proceed with the ceremony in this state, it will only become a joke."

Alexei's face sank at those words.

"I'm disappointed, Alexei. You probably know what this wedding ceremony means."

The wedding ceremony was usually conducted by the high priest. It was the first time that a spirit appeared in person. That's why this engagement ceremony was very special.

It was a golden opportunity to show off the kingdom's status at a gathering of all the major figures on the continent.

Until Alexei ruined it.

Alexei's face heated up. As a result of his own actions, he finally began to come to his senses in front of him.

"Tatyana, please go back now. I think you'd better get out the back door."

The Queen pointed to a small side door.

"If you go out and continue through the hallway, you will find the palace patron."

"Yes, I understand."

"Let's discuss what happens next soon."

It was what she wanted. Kanna opened the back door and got out before anyone caught her.

She walked down the long hallway as the Queen had instructed.

When she finally got out of the backyard, the cold night air hit her face.

Kanna walked calmly to the shore of the lake in the back garden. She sat down on the wooden bench and buried her face in her hands.

'Why does this keep happening?'

No matter how things go wrong in the world, isn't this too bad? 

Kanna sighed and lifted her face.

"..."

And she saw a person who approached silently.

The golden-embroidered robes and pure white shroud shone white under the moonlight.

Kanna looked at the robes waving in front of her and slowly raised her head.

And for the first time in a very long time, their eyes met.

Raphael was looking down at her with an extremely emotionless face. Kanna swallowed her saliva without realizing it as he looked at her for the first time in a long time.

"Don't come visit me again."

It was the first time they had seen each other since that day. How can it feel so different after only a few months? 

Maybe it was because of the noble sincerity that seemed to have been woven by moonlight. Kanna knew for the first time that white could overwhelm people so much.

Moreover, his jawline was sharper than when she saw him then, and his eyes were dark as if they were submerged in deep, dark water.

It was unfamiliar, like a stranger.

Then, he opened his mouth.

"Why did you give your heart to a man like that?"

Contrary to his bitter words, his voice was as calm as a lake in a vacuum with no wind blowing. Kanna answered without thinking.

"I didn't know it was like that."

It was funny to say that. But it was sincere and true.

Who knew Alexei had that kind of side to him? 

She and the Queen too. And she probably didn't even know him.

"What do you want now?"

However, Raphael did not seem to have much appreciation for this and immediately brought up another topic.

"Do you want to marry Prince Lorenzo?"

Kanna couldn't answer right away. She couldn't understand the intention of the question.

In this place, where she rejected his offer and chose it, Kanna was greatly betrayed.

As he watched this misfortune, Kanna thought he would criticize her, laugh at her, or at least say something like. 'You should have held my hand like that.'

He didn't do any of that. He simply asked what her next move would be.

"What if I don't want to?"

"Do as you wish. I will follow your will, whatever it may be."

Those unrealistic words immediately brought Kanna back to her senses. Now he was suggesting that she come to him at any time.

'Why?'

Does he not remember what she did?

Kanna has nothing to say if he wants to kill her, but he's going to help her?

Kanna was shocked and asked without realizing it.

"Aren't you mad at me?"

Then Raphael blinked. He seemed not to know the cause of the question.

"Yes."

But he seemed to have realized it soon and answered softly.

"You don't have to keep your promise to me. If that is the path that is beneficial to you."

This is the first time she has heard such logic. Kanna looked up at him in confusion. It was a clean face without an ounce of pretense or lies.

He wasn't truly upset with her at all.

"Of course I was disappointed, but I have no feelings towards you."

No feelings.

In those words, Kanna finally found the correct answer. Raphael is not happy. He is not sad, he is not angry.

When she gives orders, he listens.

That was it.

Despite the numerous rejections and betrayals she had shown so far, his feelings never seemed to be hurt.

No, from the beginning...

'He has very little emotion.'

She thought he was just a person who didn't express much, but that wasn't the case.

The range of emotions he felt was very small from the beginning. He was that kind of person. Did he understand Kanna's thoughts? 

For a moment, confusion appeared in Raphael's eyes.

"I know that my stupidity may offend others. I am trying to improve."

Improvement. Effort. 

Perhaps he regarded it as a flaw.

Kanna spoke cautiously.

"Don't talk like that. I just understand why you act like this."

"You don't have to understand me."

Raphael said, cutting it like a knife.

"I am ready to do whatever you want, so just tell me what you want."

After pausing for a moment, he resumed.

"Please tell me if you do not wish to marry Prince Lorenzo. I will refuse the Holy Matrimony ceremony tomorrow. A marriage that does not receive a priest's blessing is invalid."

"..."

"What do you want to do?"

He was right. What mattered right now was the situation she was in.

Kanna, who was staring at him intently, sighed.

"What I want...."

***

After the conversation with her, Raphael took a step forward.

And he looked back on his conversation with Kanna.

It was something he always did. He went over and over again to see if he had made any mistakes or if he had offended her.

It had to be that way.

As Kanna noticed, he could not feel emotions compared to others, and he could not also capture other people's emotions just as much.

So when he was dealing with Kanna, he was so nervous that his hair turned gray.

He thought thoroughly about every word before saying them. He is afraid that his own insensitivity will displease her.

His eyes were cold.

He doesn't know.

What mistake did he make that prompted her to ask about herself? Why....

'Why did I think she was angry?'

Raphael already told her many times that he would do anything for her.

Therefore, if she abandons him, it is natural for him to be abandoned if it makes her happier.

But why did she say that?

'You should be angry.'

If he had, he might not have noticed her absence.

Raphael learned that if a similar incident occurred next time, he would definitely be a little angry.

This is how he learned and learned again. Like a doll imitating a human being.

"Huh!"

While walking through the garden, Raphael stopped.

"The Great Spirit. I see you."

Raphael stared at the other person. He was a man who was so scared that he looked like he was going to faint at any moment.

“Astan.”

Priest Astan's face turned white. His knees were shaking.

"Um, me... Do you remember?"

"How can I forget you? You were prepared as a sacrifice for me."

Astan could not hold on any longer and fell to his knees. He was shaking.

"What's the matter?"

Raphael tilts his head as if he is truly puzzled.

"I didn't create myself, so why are you afraid of me?"

Contrary to the words telling him not to be afraid, Raphael's eyes were fierce.

He remembered what Astan had done to Kanna. What happened before his eyes the other day. The disrespect he has done to Kanna over the past three years. 

"Save me, save me, save me, please.."

As he got closer, Astan cried and begged. To him, Raphael was a fear he could never overcome.

To create the next great spirit, the great temple sacrificed many priests. He clearly witnessed the priests' life force being drained out before his eyes. Astan was scheduled to be one of them.

That would have happened if Raphael hadn't escaped in the middle of it.

"Please, please save me..."

Raphael tilted his face.

Why is he crying already? Raphael hasn't done anything yet.

After all, he had seen the entire process of being made into a spirit, so it was worth it.

But he knew it wasn't his will. Instead of making excuses, Raphael stretched out his hand.

Kanna, she is his God.

Anyone who insulted God deserved to die.

'And he deserves to die too.'

He was created by absorbing countless lives and sexual powers, and his life itself was a sin and his very breath was immoral. He was an immoral person who deserved to die.

So Raphael tried to die, but she saved him.

A girl who knew nothing gave him bread and milk, gave him medicine, and told him to live.

Is that all? 

Not knowing what his body was made of, she came to him and treated him whenever he was injured or out of shape.

Not knowing how terrible his blood was, she wiped it away in pain every time it flowed.

Every time Kanna did that, he looked down at her pure white neck and thought of a deer.

It felt like a young deer was coming up to him and licking his wounds. The blood of a poisonous monsteг.

Naively.

And, foolishly.

Raphael stretched out his hand. Just before he could reach Astan, w lho was crying and pleading.

"It's terrible."

The words she said a few months ago came back like a dagger.

Raphael lowered his hand. Almost fainting, he looked at Astan and then turned his back.

Then he walked away. Slowly, quickly, slowly again...

Finally, he stood tall and stopped. Raphael raised his hand over his chest.

"...?"

He tilted his head.

Every time he thought about what she said, he felt like his heart was throbbing somewhere...

Not really. As always.

He does not know.

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