IDEFYEM - Chapter 62
Black Man, I'll Do Everything For You Except Marriage!
"I beg your pardon?"
"Don't do that, Enri."
He was almost asleep and could barely move his tongue as if he was talking in his sleep.
A quiet voice reached my ear and subsided.
It was raining outside the window, and I was listening to a sentence with a missing subject.
Kael's chest rose and fell at regular intervals, and the night air that touched his skin was moderately cool.
Such an ordinary moment was transformed into something romantic with him. Now I couldn't tell what he meant, but somehow it made my heart grow fonder.
Suddenly, out of impulse, I whispered.
"I like you."
I thought that he wouldn't be able to hear or remember anyway.
"More than you think, Kael. I like you."
As I said that, I felt the emotions that I wasn't sure about until now take shape.
Thump, thump.
My heart was racing.
The things we have done together since the day we first met until now flashed through my mind. If it weren't for him, I would have been living a life of abuse by the Duke in this life as well.
It was clear that participating in a hunting banquet, learning magic, and saving someone would have been unthinkable.
The jewelry and dress that Kael gave me were by no means everything.
He gave me the gift of life.
'I'm still not sure how heavy and deep this feeling is.'
I was confused as to whether it could be called love. But I really liked him now. I thought that was enough.
It was a very precious moment for me, but for some reason, Kael's face hardened.
His expression was full of guilt and pain, as if he was having a bad dream.
“No, Enri.”
It was difficult to even understand the pronunciation of the voice, which was now almost like a metal sound.
I straightened Kael's narrowed eyebrows by gently pressing them with my hand.
"If you keep trusting your face like this, it will get wrinkled."
"..."
"Well, I guess you'll like it anyway."
I pursed my lips and changed the wet towel that had become lukewarm again. I tipped a glass of water to his dry lips a few times to help him quench his thirst.
And I just looked at Kael, who seemed to be falling into a deep sleep. I thought it would be better not to disturb him any further.
"Sleep well, Kael. Get well soon."
I quickly gathered up the glasses and tray I had brought with me and stood up from the bed.
At that time, Kael's eyelids were half open.
***.
My eyelids opened at the sound of frustling on the bed.
After calming him down with a sigh, his blurry gaze landed on her back as she left.
Perhaps because of the fever, his head felt heavy and dizzy. No matter how rainy it was, it was rare for his judgment to be impaired like this.
In his blurred vision, Raphael's eyes desperately followed the remnants of the woman leaving.
Maybe it was because he knew that that kindness wouldn't last long.
He was once again amazed by the long pink hair that swayed every time she walked. She was the only one shining in this empty, colorless space.
Raphael often laughed at the Grand Duke's bedroom where he was currently lying.
The most splendid space in the splendid grand-ducal residence was intentionally neglected. That's how he confirmed every night how vain this position, standing on the blood of his brothers, was.
'But... It would be a little different if you stayed here like you did just now.'
It will be the brightest place in the world even without decoration.
Raphael had a slightly dangerous thought in his dazed mind. What would that sunny woman do if she found out his true feelings?
"I trust you completely now."
Is it because they know that the upcoming wedding is a new beginning and the end of their relationship?
Those words were especially painful.
So, did he impulsively get out of bed? No, did he walk?
With a sinking consciousness, he blocked Enrica from opening the door.
"... Kael?"
She looked at him with her big pink eyes wide open. The innocence in those sparkling eyes was lovely.
To stare like a savior at an ungrateful beast that will soon bite the back of her neck...
Raphael felt like he could live looking at those eyes for the rest of his life.
That's probably why he pursed his lips.
"Don't go."
***
"Don't go."
"Yes, yes?"
Kael, who threw the bomb, grabbed my wrist without causing any pain.
I thought he was completely out of his mind, but then he asked a question.
"Can I hold you?"
"Yes...."
When he reluctantly gave permission, a faint smile appeared on KaeI's lips.
'Wow, it's cute.'
After getting my permission, he went further and grabbed my hand. It was the first time we held hands, other than being briefly escorted out of the carriage.
Do you know my pounding heart or do you not know?
Kael held my hand and walked towards the bed again. He moved his heavy body shakily and fell down on the blanket with me.
Suddenly, I ended up lying down on the same bed with him face to face.
'Did telling me not to go really mean asking me to stay with him all night?
It wasn't difficult, but it felt like it was a bit hard on my heart.
The person who actually made me like this had a fairly calm face.
“Enri.”
"Yes, I'm still here."
"Are you not going?"
"If that's what you want."
"Aren't you sleepy? You said you went out."
"The person who looks the sleepiest right now is you. Why don't you stop talking?"
He kept asking questions in a blank voice as if he wanted constant confirmation that I was there. The usual question soon took a different direction and came to me.
"Enri, are you happy now?"
He asked in a sleepy voice. Answering that question was easy.
"Yes."
There were a lot of problems to solve, but there were also a lot of happy things to do.
It was like that even now, as I lay facing him, holding his hand.
He didn't say anything for a while, so I thought he might have fallen asleep, but Kael finally answered.
"Me too."
"..."
"Me too."
He pulled my hand and moved it to his chest. Even without words, I could feel his desperate desire to convey the sound of his heart.
But it was still quiet, without any pulsation.
Instead, I closed my eyes and began to imagine what Kael's heart would sound like.
Thump, thump.
I whispered to the beat that could be heard faintly in my head.
"Can't I just keep being happy?"
As I continued to listen to the low, quiet voice, my eyelids became heavy.
Riding a horse during the day to visit the village seemed to have taken up quite a bit of my stamina.
"Can't you just stop hating me?"
Kael spoke into the air to no further response.
"Enri, I don't care whether you are a demon or a murderer."
What was he so desperate for? He said as he put pressure on my hand.
"So please accept me as I am, please..."
The silence that came at the end of those words.
No one's voice could be heard anymore in the room bathed in moonlight.
***
The dazzling morning sunlight on my eyelids and the sound of birds chirping.
I woke up feeling the morning signal and stretched like usual.
"Ah, I slept well... Wow."
An unfamiliar ceiling, an unfamiliar blanket. The absurd thought that I had fallen into another world again passed through my mind for a moment.
I realized the situation after seeing the man still sleeping while holding my hand. The sunlight pouring in from the window sparkled like a painting on the bridge of his nose. Immediately after making a strange sound, I covered my mouth and looked back at yesterday's memories.
'I'm sure I fell asleep right here.'
Kael, who seemed to have woken up to the sound I made at that time, slowly opened his eyes.
"..."
When our eyes met, his pupils began to shake wildly, as if a large rock had fallen into an always calm lake.
"Nothing happened!"
First of all, in order to correct the misunderstanding that seemed to be occurring, I shouted out without any hesitation.
"What... No, I don't think so....".
Kael made a rare stuttering excuse, then narrowed his eyebrows and got lost in thought, as if he was going down the same path I had taken.
As I was looking at that, a thought I suddenly occurred to me.
"Do you remember?"
"Not exactly, but sparsely."
"What is your last memory?"
"I didn't want to hear the rain, so I asked you to say anything."
As expected, he couldn't seem to remember anything important that happened afterward, whether my prediction was correct or not.
"Why are you smiling like that?"
Kael, who seemed suspicious of the corners of my mouth quirking up, asked.
"Oh, it's nothing!"
"Have I committed great disrespect?"
"Because it really isn't."
I liked the fact that there were more people who didn't even know him and only knew about me.
"Don't do that, Enri."
It's a shame that I can no longer ask the meaning of these meaningful words.
I feel like I forgot something, even if it was an impulsive confession. I spoke quickly.
"Still, you look very well. You don't feel like have any more fever."
"It's entirely thanks to you."
After saying thank you, he frowned and looked out the window as if he was being dazzled.
"It's a very clear day."
Cloudy days were everywhere, and birds were chirping and flying in the bright blue sky as if they were trying to make up for yesterday's weather.
Unlike him, who seemed quite carefree, I was sweating inside.
'But this situation seems strange to anyone.'
Especially if Sarah sees me coming out of Kael's bedroom in a slip.
"Well, I'll go out first."
"Yes? Enri, why suddenly...."
Thinking that I shouldn't be caught, I hurriedly got up and ran out of the room despite Kael's dissuasion.
As soon as I opened the door, I had a scary idea that Sarah was there. Fortunately, that didn't seem to be the case.
'If I go back to my room like this, I won't be caught by anyone!'
As I was hurried along with hopeful thoughts, I turned around the hallway and bumped my head into someone.
"Ouch."
I lifted my head, rubbing the numb top of my head, and soon realized that pain wasn't the problem. This was because intense red hair was fluttering in my field of vision.
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