SPMB - Side Story Chapter 43

She hugs him from behind.

A gentle body temperature rushed in like warm air. A sweet scent hit his back.

A thin arm extends from behind and wraps around his chest.

"Alex."

Alessandro was stuffed at that moment.

It felt like an eternity.

"I miss you."

Her voice floats behind him.

“I missed you so, so much.”

His breathing is faltering. He can't seem to get any rest on his own.

So he took a deep breath and let it out. And he said.

“Kanna, put this away.”

"No."

“I would have told you. I am...”

"I know. I know. I know. I know you need rest, I know that.”

Her voice trembled.

The fingertips that were tightly hugging his chest were so hot that he could feel them tingling.

No, maybe it was because of his increased enthusiasm.

“I missed you so much I couldn’t stand it.”

Alessandro felt dizzy.

It's so hard, he's out of breath.

It felt like he was barely able to stand in the storm that hit his whole body. He felt like he would fall over if he made a mistake.

Down, into the deep mud.

“Please don’t abandon me.”

Kanna pulls the hem of his clothes. She uses her strength to turn his body.

It was a force so weak that it was laughable.

But it was absolute.

He didn't know how to resist this. He had been like that from the moment he first met her decades ago.

"Please, please..."

Alessandro had a premonition as he turned around, guided by her power. No, he was sure.

Definitely him.

In the end, once again, I... 

"Alex."

The moment he finally laid eyes on her, everything became natural.

Yes, of course. It's natural.

Kanna wraps her arms around his neck.

Raise her heels as hard as she can.

Even then, it wasn't enough to reach, so Alessandro grabbed Kanna's waist with his hands. He pulled up forcefully.

The face that was getting closer was dazzling, but he still wanted to see it until the end.

Her abundant eyelashes falling gently, her heated breath breaking into small pieces, and her slowly overlapping skin trembling...

As he held the child's lips, he realized it clearly.

I am...

He is the worst human being.

His thoughts were shattered by the sweet feeling of guilt. It exploded into pure white, leaving no remains.

A time of barbarism is recreated.

At that house. Just like back then.

He passionately fell into the abyss that had caused Alessandro to blame himself endlessly.

But the merciful night was as deep as a swamp. It hid the two people in the dark.

So that no one knows, no one sees.

It was hot throughout that hidden time. He felt like he had fallen into another world, intoxicated by the dizzying sensation that split his body.

It was an abyss.

It was paradise.

***

“I know how you feel.”

She spoke in the dim moonlight of dawn.

“Don’t think I don’t know.”

Her voice floats across his chest.

Alessandro stroked her hair and pulled her a little closer.

Now she had his own scent. From her head to her toes, she was covered in his body odor.

“Are you happy when you’re like this with me?”

"Yes."

“But isn’t it that painful?”

Alessandro responded by kissing her forehead.

"Yes."

Not long ago, Orsini said something.

“I guess you can’t have that peace next to Kanna. ”

That was right.

Being by Kanna's side meant a constant battle of the mind.

There is no such thing as rest and peace.

This was a woman he couldn't have without soul-wrenching guilt and agony. It was a relationship he had no choice but to have.

Unless they are reborn and come into another relationship, this feeling of guilt will follow them forever.

He knows how to end this war.

Just end this relationship.

They should never meet again. Then this pain will end.

So he did so.

But actually, sincerely...

He didn't want to do that.

Even after declaring the end of the relationship, he hoped it wouldn't end.

Because he had this woman.

Because he knows the satisfaction, wonder, and joy of that moment.

A woman he cannot abandon. But she is a woman he should never have.

That was Kanna.

Orsini knew all this.

The only enemy that can stop Alessandro is Alessandro himself.

“So I thought about it.”

Kanna raised her head and looked at him.

“When I used to live in my mother’s world, I heard a story.”

"What?"

“It’s a story about lovers who meet only one day a year.”

Kanna whispered, tracing his jawline with her fingertips.

“It’s a story about a couple who live so far away from each other that they can never be together, but they still meet once a year and love each other terribly.”

Kanna's voice filled with excitement and hope.

“So that’s how we meet too. But once a year is too little, so more often than that.”

“ ...”

"I know. It's hard for you when you're with me. But isn’t a peaceful life without any hardships boring?”

Then she narrows her eyes and smiles. The teardrop spot he loved so much was fascinating.

“So it’s okay to suffer sometimes, Alex.”

Alessandro placed his lips on her tear spot. He licked it lightly.

Then, as if she was tickled, she smiled lightly and continued talking.

“Sometimes, it can be fun to do bad things like this.”

"Is it."

"Is it so. I can promise you that. I’ll make you so happy that you won’t even remember the moments we spent together.”

Kanna hugged his neck and whispered in his ear.

"Babe... Let's do that, huh?"

For a moment, his head was spinning.

Heat soared to the point of burning the corners of his eyes, and Alessandro let out a boiling groan.

“Kanna Addis.”

"Huh? Did you like hearing that? It was a joke.”

“Do it in moderation.”

"Lie. While I like it like this. I heard you also play with your body and speech separately.”

“Are you going to keep being bad?”

“What do you think? We are already bad.”

Kanna stroked his flushed cheek.

“Our story may not be like a beautiful and happy fairy tale, but..."

Kanna laughed.

“I like it better than happy endings, right?”

Alessandro looked at Kanna.

Smiling in the penetrating moonlight, she was so beautiful that she seemed like an ethereal being.

But he knows.

She must be a devil with the face of an angel.

He was completely deluded. He became a blind fanatic and offered everything he had on the woman's altar.

His life, his soul, and eventually even his flesh and blood.

Now there's only one thing left for him.

All he had left was a pitiful conscience...

“Are you going to do as I say?”

Women extort even that.

“Promise me you’ll never abandon me again.”

She commands her to give everything.

“Alex, you like me. You only liked me and only me your whole life.”

And seduce.

If you do that, I will give you very sweet fruit.

"Hurry... huh?"

Kanna kissed the corner of his eyes.

Then, like tears, they flowed down his cheeks, past his lips, and settled on the tip of his chin...

Slowly falling down.

“...Kanna."

He was drowned in her flood and died. His breathing becomes heavy and he gets hot. And it became distant.

Reason becomes wet. It melts.

Without a trace or shape, Alessandro saw himself collapsing miserably again.

Kanna was killing him. She was devouring him whole like a predator.

With those pretty lips, those sweet lips...

Entire...

Alessandro let out a hot breath.

"Yes."

It felt like his soul was being swallowed up, so he grabbed the sheet with one hand.

He covered his face with his remaining hand. So as not to see the moment when it is clear that he is a golden animal.

And confessed.

"Yes."

You are right.

You are right.

Always, at any time, at any moment, I am yours, Khanna Addis, you...

The moment he gasped, the moment he confessed decades of secrets, he reached the pinnacle of freedom. It was almost like a feeling of liberation.

He groaned.

Because she was truly right.

Nothing mattered before this almighty ecstasy.

"I'm happy. I knew you would say that.”

Everything becomes clear before the revelation-like whisper. His vision, which had been shattered to white, becomes clear.

Finally, all impurities disappear and only one remains.

“Alessandro Addis, I really like you.”

There is only one thing he wants.

There was only one at any time.

“You are mine.”

Kanna.

You robber of my fate, who destroyed my life.

You always dominate me as fiercely as a swarm of demons.

My beautiful disaster.

My love, I love you so much that it boils over.

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