ICTV -Chapter 117
I change The Villain
"Why do you have to ask that...?
"You were so focused that you didn't even notice that I was close."
"What does this have to do with that?"
"My friend said this to me when I was concentrating. So I tried following it."
Rose stood up.
"Would you like to take a break?"
"You're talking to me, right?"
"Then who else is here besides you?"
"Oh, sorry. You haven't talked to me lately, so I thought you were talking to someone else. Yes. But this time I told you right."
"I'm glad about that."
Belial sat down next to Rose. He had been reading the document for so long that his eyes were strained. Rose said, probably thinking that Belial was sleepy as he closed his eyes for a moment.
"Would you like to close your eyes?"
"I'm acting like you did when we first met in a long time today."
"Is that so? I always acted like I did when we first met."
"..."
Let's not talk. Belial closed his eyes again and Rose patted his shoulder.
"You can count on me."
"... Yes?"
Belial couldn't believe his ears for a moment. However, Rose was unnecessarily confident today as well.
"I got some delicious desserts, but I wonder if I can get this much. Come on, lean in."
"..."
Belial asked a question that he couldn't help but ask.
"Are you meeting me for dessert...?"
"Then wouldn't it be better to just meet the owner of the cake shop?"
"That's true too."
Even today, Belial was unable to refute Rose's words. Rose motioned to Belial, flipping through her red hair, which was Belial's favorite color.
Belial pondered what to do and Ieaned on Rose's shoulder. And he was surprised that Rose's shoulders were warmer than he expected.
Rose patted Belial's arm.
"You had a hard time."
"..."
"Go to sleep. When you're tired, it's best to get a good night's sleep."
It's quite funny to see people spouting words as sweet as sugar to an expressionless topic. Come to think of it, it was like that back then too.
'I want to meet you many times.'
How dare she make such a bold confession when all her attention is focused on cake.
Thinking about that time made Belial laugh again. As he kept saying, Belial was a person who, if he wanted something, had to use any means to get it to satisfy his temper.
So deep down, he thought that if he killed Rose, who didn't go his way and couldn't predict even a single inch, with his own hands, he would be able to completely own her. But now he just liked this warmth. The warmth and pounding heart sound that cannot be felt in a dead person.
Belial used the sound as a lullaby and fell into a comfortable sleep.
When he thinks about it now, from that day on, Rose soaked into Belial like clothes getting wet in a light rain, and when Belial realized it.
This was after Rose had irreversibly penetrated Belial.
***
After the story was over, Rose looked at Belial with a puzzled expression.
"You finally fell in love with that?"
"I realized it later, though."
"When did you become self-aware?"
"When you almost got murdered at the Academy."
"Ah."
Belial definitely became sweeter from then on. I spoke in a pouty tone for no reason.
"Do you know that you are a rather easy man?"
"How about an easy guy?"
Belial leaned on my shoulder Iike before.
"You are an easy man."
"..."
The two stood in front of the window, leaning on each other and enjoying the warm sunlight. Belial opened his mouth.
"Love may seem amazing, but it doesn't seem like it's that big of a deal."
"Why?"
"Every time you smiled sometimes, every time you said something as sweet as sugar, I loved you so much that I couldn't bear it. At that time, you really treated me like I was nothing more than a piece of cake."
"No. I'm really sorry about that,
Belial."
"And right now."
Belial turned his head and made eye contact with Rose.
"I can't believe I'm so happy even though we're just together. I'm so happy it's almost scary."
"..."
"They say happiness is bound to end someday."
I raised my hand and slowly patted Belial's back.
"So that's what you said earlier?"
"..."
Belial said nothing. But I realized I was right when I saw Belial's shoulders shaking slightly.
"Because I couldn't make your wish so desperately come true."
"Belial, I am grateful to you for not being able to grant my wish back then."
"Rose."
Belial stretched out his hands and hugged me. Very desperately, like a person about to fall into an abyss, holding on to the last strand of rope.
"I am anxious. I'm so anxious I can't stand it."
I also stretched out my hands and hugged Belial. Very calmly.
"I'm afraid that our relationship will break up one day, that someday misfortune will happen and you'll blame me for not killing you then. But the thing I'm most afraid of is..."
Belial said, burying his face in my arms.
"You are leaving me. I thought it would be better for both of us if we died together now."
"Why am I leaving you?"
"I have been denying it for so long, but I will no longer deny it."
Belial spoke bluntly.
"You are right. I still haven't changed."
"..."
"I still get so angry when other people look at you that I can't stand it, and I don't like it when you look at anyone other than me."
Belial slowly raised his head. There were tears in his blue eyes.
"I want to possess you completely."
Belial's tone as he said that was as pitiful as a sinner going to confession.
"But I don't want to own it in a bad way like I did then."
I looked at Belial in silence.
"I hope you think I'm a good person."
"..."
"I hope you always smile happily next to me."
Belial's hands cupped my face.
"I wish you and I could be together forever. But that would be impossible."
"Why do you think it's impossible?"
Belial said sadly.
"I can desperately pretend to be a good person, but I can't be a good person. But if you don't mind this or that."
Belial got down on one knee and held out his hand.
"Will you take it?"
I looked down at Belial and asked.
"I don't know why you're asking that question. If I hadn't been willing to accept, I wouldn't have proposed yesterday."
"Rose."
"Where is the ring I gave you yesterday?"
I immediately opened the drawer and brought out a flower ring. Then I sat down on the floor and locked eyes with Belial. I smiled brightly as I put th flower ring on Belial's finger.
"It's unfortunate that you sometimes miss important things."
"..."
Tears welled up in Belial's eyes again. But the tears did not have the same meaning as before. I lightly pinched Belial's cheek as if I thought it was cute.
"You know, Belial. Surely someday I might want to die again, a crisis might come between us, and we might be disappointed in each other. And it could be your fault, or it could be mine."
I closed my eyes and pressed my forehead against Belial.
"But that's something that can't be helped. You can't have only good things in life, right?"
Belial clasped my hand and whispered.
"... Only good things can happen."
I shook my head.
"You have to suppress and sacrifice that much."
"I don't care."
I said clearly.
"It matters."
"..."
"Belial, look at you now. It's nice to spend time with me, but it's so painful. Hide yourself and pretend to be a good person."
"... I'm willing to risk that much to be with you."
"Belial."
I called Belial's name again.
"Acting for someone you love also has its limits. We have to live together for a much longer time than the time we have spent so far. Can you hold on?"
"... I might really change in the future, right?"
"Even if you can endure it, I won't be able to endure the guilt."
I stroked Belial's head.
"Belial, please promise me this one thing."
"...What promise?"
"Belial, please change for yourself now, not for me."
"..."
"I will be there to help you. So let's move forward together."
Tears welled up in Belial's eyes again. I said, closing my eyes.
"We will be able to do well."
At the end of those words, their lips touched. After a warm kiss, the two put their heads together and whispered as if they were telling a secret.
"I can't wait to go back to the mansion."
"Me too."
"What will you do first when you get back to the mansion? Would you like to eat Mont Blanc first? Or are you going to sleep soundly in my room? Either that or...."
Belial asked playfully.
"From me?"
I also responded playfully.
"Starting with you."
With that answer, the two kissed again. The two laughed, holding each other's hands tighter.
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